My Girl

What happens now...

That night, I was engulfed by a pool of my own tears. Realistically, it never should have worked and it didn't. I love Ri, I really do but there's nothing I can do at this point. Cheating on me and then accusing me of doing the same to him-unbelievable. Has he really got that little respect for me I just can't believe it. It's like something you read in a silly story but this is my life. In the end you either break a heart or get your heart broken and I suppose that there will be more heart break, more pain, more hurt and this feeling wont last forever but for now I can't feel anything else, this is it. I can still feel his arms around me when I sleep from all of the midnight cuddles and the way that he gazed at me when he thought I didn't know. All I want in this very moment is to forget all of this and just talk to someone. I would normally turn to Riley but due to obvious reasons we can do that can we. Caspar!

I can always at least count on Cas. It's 2 am, he might still be awake but I doubt it. I move the curtain slightly and see that his lights are still on. Thank the heavens. I hate waking people but I just need someone to hang out with for now. I shoot him a text quickly to make sure he is actually awake and that he hasn't just fallen asleep with his lights on. To my relief, he replies instantly and I hear the sound of his window opening and his footsteps on the roof top and ladder. He enters my room and without a word instantaneously wraps his arms around my torso. A good minute later he unravels himself from me.

'I heard it all Ell but I wasn't sure if you wanted me to come over.'

'Cas, you know that you're the only person who can ever cheer me up of-course I want you to come over.'

'How can I make you feel better Ell, anything you name it!'

'I really don't know, could we maybe go for a walk or something. I just want to get out of this damn house.'

'Of-course. Come on, get changed and then we can walk to the park and sit on the swing set and you can tell me about everything. I'm gonna go get dressed and then I climb back through because there is no way my parents will let me go through the front door. See you in 10.'

I quickly got changed out of my damp clothes into an over-sized hoodie and jeans as well as my most comfortable pair of socks. Cas climbed back through ten minutes later as promised and we left. The park is only a mere 5 minute walk from our houses so soon we were there, sitting on the swing set like children. It was nice. For a while, I just complained to Cas and being the absolute gem he is, he just sat there and listened contributing every once in a while. By the time I finally stopped it was 4 am.

'Cas?'

'Yes dear.'

'I just realized that I really don't know very much about you. You're my best friend and I don't even know your favourite colour let alone anything about you, your past or your family. Is there a reason? Or have I just never asked?'

'To be honest, I don't think either of us have ever really asked. I don't know those things about you either. There's no particular reason though. My favourite colour is orange. My favourite food is my grandma's apple pie. I hate when people are obnoxious and walk slowly or chew loudly. What else would you like to know?'

I look at him as he moves onto the twisty slide directly opposite the swing thinking about what to ask.

'What's your favourite memory from your childhood?'

'Well, my parents used to take me to my Grandma's house for the whole summer and I would spend it with my brothers and all my cousins. We'd do stupid shit like climb the tractors and all of the apple trees. You see my grandparents have a massive house with lots of rooms and I have lots of cousins so we'd all stay there and cause mischief. But, i must say that my favourite memory was when we celebrated my birthday there and they threw me a surprise party whilst I went swimming with my girlfriend. Of-course the swimming with my girlfriend was great; two 15 year olds in a lake. Need I say more? And then I got home to a huge array of balloons and food and presents. We had a bonfire that night. It was one of the best nights of my life, we sang, we danced, we laughed by the fire and we didn't go to sleep until dawn. My grandparents went to sleep at like 11 and left us some beers to drink which was the craziest thing back then. It was unheard of and the parents had no clue. We all felt like the biggest rebels. I look back on that night and it's stupid how young, dumb and crazy we all were. I can still see my cousins having a dance-off by the fire at 3 am and my grandma bringing out the apple pie which was my birthday cake with the proudest look in her eyes. I miss when she was well enough to do all these things for us. She's not too well anymore so looking back I wish I had treasured all of those moments more. But back then I didn't think of it as anything big, you never realise you're making memories until you look back on them and they're the best times of your life. I still carry a Polaroid from that day in my wallet which you probably think is stupid but I do...'

'That's so cute Caspar. I wish I had something like that. It sounds absolutely amazing and it's not stupid it's adorable!'

I could see Caspar blush slightly, turning away trying to hide it from me but it didn't work this time.

'Thanks doll-face'

I move over to him, leaning against the slide. He moves off the slide and sits beside me. I place my head on his shoulder and he kisses my head.

'Thank you for this Cas. You have no idea how much this means to me.'

'Any time baby cakes'

Soon we could see the sun rising and it was dawn. We decided it was best to walk home before anyone realised that we had gone anywhere. We slowly walked home, our fingers loosely interlocked. Caspar was just about to climb back through the window when he decided to hug me one last time. We pulled away from the warm hug, he gazed into my eyes. Before I knew it, his lips had crashed against mine like waves on a cliff. He pulled away and scurried back through my window to his own.

Shit.

What happens now...

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