My Girl

The start of something new

A month has passed and it's the last day of school and tomorrow me and Cas leave to go to Italy to start our adventures. Today is of-course the long awaited graduation. As much as I am obviously excited to graduate I can't help but feel a sense of nostalgia as I walk around these halls for the last time, as I look around I see where memories happened and they replay in my mind. It feels as if it were only yesterday that I joined this school and here I am graduating. I feel as if this almost marks the end of my childhood because from now I will be even more independent when I go to college.

The day passes and in the blink of an eye I stand as a High School graduate. All the years leading up to this and here it is. I feel no different. Not that I should obviously but here I am. I talked to Cas a little throughout the day but I've spent most of time packing since I got home so I haven't particularly had time. Im sure he's probably doing the same.

I found that surprisingly packing took less time than I had imagined. I watched Netflix for a few hours before I realised that I wanted to go out n walk around the town for a while before I leave for a few months. So as I very often do, I put on my shoes, played some music through my headphones and left to go wander around the town. I thought about all of the places I could go but none interested me enough to actually go there. Until I finally thought of the perfect place for me to go and think for a little while. The spot above the city where all you can see is lights. What used to be 'mine and Riley's spot'.

I head towards it, it's a good thirty minute walk so it takes me a while. It's nice though, the fresh air. I finally get there and the lights lead me through the few trees in the way. I walk through and see a figure there. It's Riley. I automatically turn around to walk home but he heard my footsteps. He turns his head to see me 'Bella?'.

I turn back around. I see him sat there, a cigarette in his hand. My facial expression must have shown that I was confused because he automatically told me that he had started since we last spoke. He had motioned for me to come sit next to him, I did just that and I let my legs dangle over the edge of the cliff as we sat n watched the town. We spoke for a while just nonsense.

"Bella, I um... I just wanted to say that I am so so sorry for everything I did to you. I was an asshole and I am honestly so sorry for that. I understand if you can't forgive me, but it's been playing on my mind-how we ended and what happened that is. And I can't forgive myself either for what I did to you. I'm just... I'm sorry Belle"

"Riley, i get it. I've had time to think about it and I'm sorry too. We should just put it behind us?"

"Awh Bella, thank you so much! I'm so sorry but thank you. I really want to put it behind us too"

We continued to talk for an hour or two and time just flew by and I could tell that Riley and I still have that chemistry that originally brought us together. Once again I started to think about when I had first moved here, how Ri was one of the first people who actually talked to me in lessons and made me feel some what welcome. Then all the memories of us being together played through my mind as he started deeply into my eyes and I into his. Our first date after our science project, the car rides where we just belted our favourite songs and everything that we did together and everywhere we went together. Next thing i knew, whilst so wrapped up in my own thoughts, Rileys mouth landed on mine. At first, I thought nothing of it and the familiarity of it kept me calm but I soon realised what was going on and how Riley and I were not together anymore and whilst neither of us are with anyone else, it should stop. But for whatever reason, I couldn't stop it and we then lay there making out above the city as we did after our first date and so many times after.