secret love//daniel seavey

Chapter 3

*Carly's POV*

*2 weeks later*

       There was so much about you I'd never be able to explain. You were my happiness and everything I needed to feel alive.

      However there was that part of me that felt so betrayed by what you did.

      One day, someone asked me when I realized I was so deeply in love with you. I thought for a moment before finally realizing my answer. 'The moment he did the worst thing ever and I couldn't find myself hating him. All I wanted was to shout that I love him and I always would no matter what he did.'

       They just nodded their heads and walked off, leaving me wondering why I still love you. After all, you hurt me, more than anyone ever has.

       But to this day, I'll never let the words 'I hate him' leave my mouth, because it's not true.

       I'll never hate you and it sucks because I should, but I don't and I never will.

  ~

I woke up panting, dreaming of that terrible day again when I said all those words to you I promised myself I never would.

I was sort of shocked when I felt two protective arms wrap around my waist and pull me close.

I looked down to see Daniel looking at me with a worried expression.

"Carly, are you alright," he asked.

"I will be. Can you just hold me and never let go?"

He smiled and nuzzled his head into the crook of my neck.

"Always," he whispered, sending chills down my spine.

I laid back down, but knew I wouldn't be able to go back to sleep.

Truth is, I miss you.

I miss you like hell.

They told me I had to leave that town after I tried taking my life.

At such a young age, I realized what heartbreak felt like.

And you were the cause of such heartbreak.

I hope I never see you again.

I hope my eyes never have to meet yours.

I hope that I can stay away from you forever.

I remember when you used to sing me to sleep.

I remember the way your smile formed and how much you hated it.

I remember how you said you loved me.

Did you ever really mean it?

I think at some point you did.

But then you realized my love wasn't something you could handle and you just left.

Nothing will ever be the same for me.

I hope you're somewhere happy with a girl you love beside you.

I hope you forgot about me and my love.

Most importantly, I hope you follow your dreams and make everyone at home proud.

That was something I could never do.

I always disappoint.

And the only person you ever disappointed was me.

Daniel looked up meeting my glossy eyes.

"Carly, what's wrong?"

I finally knew the truth to that question.

And for once, I answered, "him."

For once, I blame you, for all the heartbreak and misery you put me through.

Dammit, you were always the answer.

Daniel pulled me into his chest as I silently cried.

He started singing my favorite song, 'Amnesia.'

His voice was so beautiful.

I fell in love with yours.

And now if I ever heard it again, I'd probably break down and remember you all over again.

I wish that I could wake up with amnesia.

And forget about the stupid little things.

As Daniel sung those words, I broke down in his arms, trying to feel safe and okay.

I finally had to accept that I wouldn't be okay.

Ever.

(A/n: I cried writing this.)