i tried to kill myself..

self harm

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i started self harming at age 11,

i still self harm to this day.

mostly on my left arm

my theory was that because i'm right handed it would be easier to conceal my cuts,

also because i sat at the table with my right arm facing my mum and my left arm facing away.

i must say, that was quite an intelligent idea.

it started off small,

just using scissors,

scratching at myself,

then i found myself using razor blades and permanently scarring myself.

i only regret it.

the regret i have for self harm trumps over everything else.

i wish i never started ..