i tried to kill myself..

part 2

finally the bell had rung so i could leave school and go. i walked  out with my usual group and then saw him again. walking with his friends. 

i couldn't handle that, i just couldn't so i picked up the pace. i was about to push my earphones into my ears when someone called my name. a short girl with dark dark brown hair was calling out to me. now i won't call her a friend more of an aqaintence.

turns out her mum picks her up from my street so we walked together. 

i saw she didn't have anything so i asked if she had gotten anything. when she said she didnt get anything i was shocked so i promised her that next year i would get her something. then she saw her mum and walked off leaving me alone to walk home. 

i walked inside and went up to my room and started to watch american horror story asylum.

around half an hour into the show my mum came in and said i had to do some studying for the mid yearlies. specifically for maths. 

usually that wouldn't trigger me but because of what had happened in math class that day it was. my mum got angry at me and i couldn't take it anymore. i told my best friend how i felt and how i wanted to die.

he tried to stop me but it didnt work,