Fragments of Memory

Goodbye,

Dear Someone ...

I'm sorry ....

I'm sorry ....

I haven't been talking to you in a while. I didn't even send any message to you.

You see up until now your untimely death is still a painful memory for me. It's going to be about 2 years now but I still can't accept the fact that you're gone.

Lately I realized that I've been very busy with college works, on-the-job training, answering those FS Books, undergrad thesis, assignments, group works, Republic Acts to memorize and more. (Well if you're doing all that I think you will be indeed unfocused and no time to think about anything) and there's also this one guy that I've been thinking about.

I'm sorry I decided to look at him. I'm sorry I think that nowadays he's better at our favorite game than you do. I'm sorry I spend a lot of time with him. I'm sorry that he's the one who is occupying my mind these days, I really can't seem to take him off of it.

I was scared and shocked of this realization. You see I thought that you will be the last one. I made a pact with myself that I won't look at anyone anymore and I can't believe I am destroying that pact. Once I realized that I am indeed liking him and his company too much, I was appalled. I can't even talk to him nor look at his eyes. I was confused.

So a week passed and we didn't talk with each other. Awkwardness is more prominent to us. Because I can't believe of my feelings towards him.

Now, I am more enlightened. I can't dwell onto the past, I need to start moving forward. I need to go on with my own life and I know that's what you want me to do.

This is my farewell to you. 

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This was supposed to be a blog post but I can't even remember if I posted it (lol) and this was written and stucked in my phone since last year so I updated it and decided to post it here and it's been 3 years :)