The star above

Something that's been broken can be fixed

Star's perspective

The week went by so fast but I mostly stayed in my room thinking and before I knew it It was the Monday that I go back to school. I guess time really does fly when your umm doing nothing? I think it was having fun but Whatever that's not the point anyway the point is that today is the day I have to talk to Luna that's if she hasn't said anything to the police yet. I'm pretty sure she didn't though I mean if she did I would have the police at my door and It has been a week since then. I'm lying in my bed and looked at the white ceiling in the dark and empty room I have eaten last night so I can relax tonight but I have done everything but that. Every time I close my eyes though I see her standing there in the doorway looking at the horror I've done and I would give anything to take that back, to take everything back but I can't. During this whole week, I haven't slept at all I just couldn't. I look at the clock beside me it's lighted red numbers telling me how much time I had until I had to face her the red colour reminding me of all the blood I've spilt. I wonder if my mom would still love me if she found out what I really was, what I have done. I feel a tear fall down my cheek as the thought came in my head. I look at the clock again 2:17 am I roll over to face the ceiling again. I've tried for the 7 years living like this to cause some kind of pain to myself but it never works but now it has the pain of losing the only person that makes you feel human and I hate it. I grab my phone as the bright screen hit's my eyes and I blink to adjust my eyes to the bright light and open my phone and go straight to my music, I grab my headphones from the drawer next to me and plug them into my phone and put the earbuds in my ears as three days grace play through the earbuds. I hum along to the songs and begin to feel a bit better and slowly feel my eyes get heavy as I fall asleep. I wake up to the sun beaming through the window and blinding my eyes, as well as the music still playing in my ears and my battery power, being very low "great" I mumble underneath my breath. I get out of my bed and grab the pair of jeans lying on the floor and put on a random T-shirt that said Bite me and grabbed my iPod plus the headphones off my bed. I ran downstairs to see my mom cooking something but the smell of bacon told me what she was cooking and I run down and into the kitchen "I smell bacon" I think I mostly yelled though as my mom jumped and turned around to face me "Star your going to give me a heart attack" but the smile on my face widened. "hey mom morning" I said in a cheerful voice eying the bacon on the plate not far from me. I guess she noticed "not yet," she said as she turned to the stove that had scrambled eggs cooking In a pan I guess I didn't see that "fine" I mumble as I walk to the table and sit down. "you're in a cheerful mood why may I ask?" wow I never noticed how happy I am weird "so?" I look up to say something but couldn't think of an answer "I don't know really" I answered. The food was finally set on the table as I eat my breakfast like it was the last meal I would ever have but it's just so good and tasty "do you breath when you eat?" I look at my mom and smile as some eggs fall out of my mouth "nope" I say back with food in my mouth as I swallow the rest of the food I finish the rest and get up grabbing my jacket and bag "bye mom see you later" I wave as I step into the cold outdoors. I hear her say bye back along with an I love you that I yelled back at her "love ya too" I'm pretty sure she heard me. I decided to walk a normal human pace to school and felt the breeze or the cold air against my open neck to lazy to have gotten a scarf as my feet hit the ground as the sound of it is all I hear. With feeling the cold metal of the iPod in my jacket pocket rolling my fingers over it but I don't dare pull it out and put earbuds in my ears enjoying the silence for once. All my life I've felt numb my heart has felt numb but there was something sparking in my heart that I couldn't explain but enjoyed anyway as I walked down the sidewalk. No dark and empty thoughts entered my head as I walked listening to my breathing as my breath showed in the cold weather It was oddly cold for Miami I wonder why. Well, it isn't that cold as my breath was not very visible walking down as I finally reach school looking at my watch on my arm 8:38 am. I'm early as the bell goes off in 2 min pulling open the door and stepping into the hallway students lining the halls talking away only then is when I pull out my iPod and put the earbuds in my ears. Scrolling through my songs I decide to pick something calming but good so I pick drop me in the water by the one and only our lady peace the beat starts as I walk to my class. The bell went off just as I step into the classroom and sit down at the back close to the window and look out at the world behind it a world that I could never seem to be a part of.