Wow.. it's so late at night, I was just binge watching 9 episodes of "The Real O'Neill's"..after I finished half of episode 9, I got a feeling of dread suddenly..Tuesday, Halloween... was my last day going to the school, and being in the town I lived in for 7 years...
More importantly...I wasn't even about to be living on the east coast anymore...
The last few days have been a living hell and packing like a crackhead for the big move to California...
To a place where I'm basically a whole new different person....
A whole, new different life...
I said goodbye to my life long best friends, family and teachers.. I was stepping into a unknown destiny with hella plot twists.. I was gonna miss a lot about Miranda, with her weird speaking, and how she would say
"Same banana" or "are you silly?!".
Man I was gonna miss everything about Pennsylvania....
Everything..
Moving away sucks in general...but now it was more like I died...and I was given a chance to basically start in a whole new life...
I don't know if I like it or regret it..
But there's one thing I do know, it's that I'm never gonna forget how much people supported me throughout the many years, like the time I "came out" or the time I cried in a bathroom stall and a random girl came up to me and gave me a hug...these people in my community are so understanding...
Sadly I wish they would understand, that everyone has to "move on" sometimes...
This video is the basis of how I felt telling my best friend that this was our last actually hug, and physically seeing each other...yes there's Skype and FaceTime and texting and calling...but it's not the same...I'm not gonna be
there..so what's the point of waking up in the morning, knowing that you not in that desk by where the window is.... and everyone looks at that desk, wondering where you are and what adventures your having without them.. if you truly want to know..I'll tell you,
I'm scared
I'm depressed
I'm ashamed
I'm uneasy
Those are my "adventures", more like nightmares...
I'm every word that can describe how it feels to lose something so important in your life that you are just left speechless... I gonna miss these days of walking home not having a care in the world...
But now I'm on a different street, in a new town....
In a new state....
Across the county...
Until we meet face to face, and hug once more....
I love you...
And I miss you already...
*waves goodbye*
I took that picture that is the banner...just trying to show my mad photography skills :3
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..:Just My Thoughts:..
RandomThis is just a little collection of a book that I have filled all of my feelings in...Whether it's good or bad...I will share it with you..to show that you not going through it alone... Hopefully, you find some comfort or relief in them :)
