Hey...
It's me..again..obviously
But it's different this time...
Have you gotten better..
Thats good to hear if you are,
If not...
Keep trying..you'll get there soon enough..
So...
Let's start..
A few years ago I wasn't like this..
I wasn't disappointed in myself...
My wrists and thighs were clean and untouched...
I didn't have the feeling of a rope around my neck all the time..
The burden was not on my shoulders or in my head...
I was
Okay.
And since then..I forgot what it felt like
To be o k a y
To not have a care in the world...
I remember when I was younger, I would hate to sleep...now I wish I wouldn't wake up...
There were times where I loved to be touched and hugged..now I wish nobody would touch me or even come near me..
There were times where I would play with crayons and paint a beautiful picture...
Now..
My paint brush is a blade..
The only colour I paint is r e d..
And it's p e r m a n e n t
So now what...
I've lost my touch with my inner child...
My use-to-be me...
I can't go on like this forever..
People should stop leaving me be...
I need help..
But I always refuse to get it...
Maybe I should just e n d
It...
Life would just be better off this way..
-Bella
YOU ARE READING
..:Just My Thoughts:..
РазноеThis is just a little collection of a book that I have filled all of my feelings in...Whether it's good or bad...I will share it with you..to show that you not going through it alone... Hopefully, you find some comfort or relief in them :)
