Shawn Mendes Imagines

Losing someone you love

 I woke up by the feeling of her hands through my hair. Her sweet kisses on my neck and her breathe on my body. I opened my eyes and saw her sitting on my torso. 

"Good morning honey!"

 "Good morning darling."

 She layed her head on my chest and we just laid like that for hours. Having her in my arms is a gift. She got up and walked to our bathroom, I followed her. She started filling the bathtub and I took our favourite bathbomb. I let it fall in the water and waited until it was done. Her warm cheek was on my bare back, I turned myself to her and just placed my lips on hers. I helped her with taking off her clothes and she helped me. We got in the bathtub and just enjoyed the moment. Feeling her this close to me before I leave for tour again. 

"Shawn?"

 "What's wrong, honey?" 

"I love you so much!"

 "I love you too!"

 I pulled her closer and felt her body shaking. I turned her around and saw her big red eyes.

 "Don't cry. I'm coming back."

 "I know, but I just got you back."

 I felt the tears pulling up in my eyes. You can see that she doesn't like this. She wiped the falling tears away and I just pulled her closer. 

"Y/n. Promise me that when I'm gone, you will wait for me and that you will love me as much as you love me now.

" " I promise! Of course i promise." 

She smashed her lips onto mine and just kissed me with all of the love that she has. I pulled back. "I know that we're just 19, but please marry me. I don't have a ring yet, but I just want to ask you this. Y/n y/l/n, please do me the honour and marry me." 

Tears were running over her cheeks. Her smile lighted up the room and her eyes were full of happiness. 

"Yes!"

 I pulled her in the tightest hug ever and just almost died of happiness. I have her as my almost wife. What could go wrong? Day passed by like minutes. Tour was almost over. Holding my babe in my arms was the only thing that I cared about. I never thought about losing her this fast. Losing her like a flashlight. But I did. I lost her. Aaliyah lost her. Her dad lost her. She just walked away. I can't feel her in my arms. 

I only have a memory of her. It's just like she was my imagination. That she was just a person that I dreamt of. But I only have the ring. The ring that was to bond us. To make her officially mine. But she is away. She is now a star in my sky. I'm not going to get over her. She is too special for that. I'm willing to love her forever. To sacrifices everything. I want her and I need her. If that means that I need to be dead then this is what I want. I'm not gonna live without her. She is the only one. I will never love someone like how I love her.