Shawn Mendes Imagines

Roses

Some people say that if you tell your feelings to the person you like they will start to have feelings too, but what if it doesn't happen. What if the person already has someone? I loved this girl for many years, more than her boyfriend. Every time she walked past me in school my heart just stopped beating. Every time she hugs or kisses her boyfriend, my heart begins to break. I've never told her, but I cannot live with the thought of not having her. She is everything that I want, everything that I need.

I walked into my classroom and saw her sitting with some friends. Immediately looking at me. They probably thought I was her boyfriend. I took a seat behind her and saw her little tattoo on her ankle. A little guitar.  Her boyfriend, Jason walked in and went immediately to her. Wrapping his arms around her body. Kissing her pump, pink lips. Her hands were around his neck, deepening the kiss. I closed my eyes and felt the tears in my eyes. No Shawn! Don't cry! I opened them again and soon the class started. Jason was sitting with his friends, talking about something.

When the class was over, I had my music class with her. It's the only class without Jason. When I reached the classroom, they were standing there too. Saying goodbye, wait, kissing goodbye. He ran away, probably to his class and she turned around to me. Well, not actually me. I held the door open for her and she walked in.

'Thanks.'

'No problem.'

Her cheeks turned deep red and a smile played on her lips. She's blushing. Because of me.

Today in music, we have to sing a song. She sang previous lesson so today it's my turn. I walked to the mic and thought about what I have to say.

'Uhm, I will perform my own song. It's for a special person.'

I went behind the piano and started playing my song.

"It's not that I'm afraid I'm not enough for her
It's not that I can't find the words to say
But when she's with him, she seems happier
And I don't want to take that away
How many times can I see your face?
How many times will you walk away?
I just have to let you know
I'm not tryna start a fire, with this flame
But I'm worried that your heart might feel the same
And I have to be honest with you baby
Tell me If I'm wrong, and this is crazy
But I got you this rose
And I need to know
Will you let it die or let it grow?
Die or let it go?
It's not that I don't care about the love you have
It's not that I don't want to see you smile
But there's no way that he can feel the same
'Cause when I think of you my mind goes wild
How many times can I see your face?
How many times will you walk away?
I just have to let you know
I'm not try'na start a fire, with this flame
But I'm worried that your heart might feel the same
And I have to be honest with you baby
Tell me If I'm wrong, and this is crazy
But I got you this rose
And I need to know
Will you let it die or let it grow?"

I opened my eyes and saw everyone standing up, clapping and yelling that I was amazing. Even her. Her smile was so big and her eyes were telling me that it was wonderful. I walked over to her and she suddenly wrapped her arms around me.

'You were fantastic, Shawn. Great song.'

She let go and took a seat next to me.

When our class was over, I walked to my car and saw that she was standing there.

'Can I talk to you?'

I nodded and walked with her to a bench.

'Is it true that the song is about me?'

Her gorgeous green eyes were looking into my hazel eyes. How can she know? How can anyone know?

'Yes, how did you know?'

She looked at my hands and then to hers.

'Brian told me. Do you like me?'

'Yes, more than you expect. I love you.'

She stood up and her eyes locked on mine.

'I'm sorry, Shawn. I don't feel that way about you. I have a great boyfriend and I love him. I'm sorry.'

She walked away and with every step she took my heart broke into pieces. What did you expect, Shawn? That she would dump him and be with you. I got up and walked to my car. I got in and let every emotion fill me up. Tears streamed down over my cheeks and breathing became heavier. So, this is the feeling when your heart breaks. It definitely sucks.

I drove to my house and ran to my room. Letting the tears become a part of me. My sister walked in and saw me sobbing. After a while she went away and I locked myself in my room. My mom knocked multiple times on my door, telling me to open it. I listened to her and soon I was in her arms.

'Shh boy, there will be other girls too.'

'I don't want anyone else, i want her mom.'

She rubbed my back and whispered encouraging things in my ear.

Hours later, I was still crying. No wonder, why people hate heartbreaks. Someone knocked on my door and walked in. Everything was blurry because of the tears, but I could tell that it wasn't my mom or my sister. It was her. She came. I felt how she wrapped her arms around me and let me cry.

'I am so sorry Shawn. I'm stupid.'

When I could see again, her eyes were swollen and red. She cried too. I wrapped my arms around hers and she laid her head on my chest.

'Are you? Did you?'

She shook her head and closed her eyes.

'I like you Shawn, but not that much. You have to understand that I'm with Jason. You may not like him, but I do.'

She stood up again and walked to my door.

'Why did you came?'

'Because you have to understand that you need someone better than me. And I don't want you to cry.'

She opened the door and walked away.

My mom said goodbye to her and then the door closed. I walked to my window and saw her leaving. How can she? By the time that her car was at the end of the street, I broke down. Crying harder. Sobbing. She doesn't understand it. She's perfect. I cried the whole night.

The next in day, everything changed. I wasn't that happy boy anymore. Everyone could see that I was in pain. She was too. Only if you look carefully you can see that she hates to hury someone. She changed too. She doesn't kisses Jason a lot. And when I pass her, I feel her staring. Everytipe I see her looking, Jason gets mad or her friends look weird at her.

Everything changed and no can changed it back.

Months later, I'm the one who gets to feel her lips. I get to feel her body against mine. She broke up with Jason, just to be with me.

She decided to let the rose grow.

Only a strong rose can grow if she was threatened to be gone.