Questioning

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Everyone that's gay has had questioning phase(s)

I don't think anything like this could have happened.

Nurse: It's a (Girl, Boy)!

Mom: *Takes baby from nurse*

Baby: *Opens eyes*

Mom: *Starts tearing up*

Baby:  *Eyes turn red*Momma

Mom: WAIT HOW CAN YOU TALK ALREADY

Baby: Momma, I'm  gay *Gurgles and then passes out*

Mom: *Screams and throws baby out of the window*

.......

Don't ask Why i thought of that.

Anyways... Every gay and trans has a questioning period, that period of 'Am I not cisgender/straight?'


Some people have it last for seconds or  days, as they've know they've been gay/trans their entire life or have a very widely known gender/sexuality like transgender or gay.

Others have questioning period that last for week or months at a time. This is pretty common as most people have to reconcile with themselves that they're gay, and let the thought sink in. A majority of the community goes through questioning like this.

A few, like me, know that they're gay, yet are constantly questioning themselves because there's always this sort of.... annoying voice screaming Are you sure your gay/trans?  In the back of their heads. This seems to always occur for my sexuality personally, especially whenever i realize i find a guy attractive and my straight-dar starts going off for myself in my head. 

Now why did you bring this up, Mysty? You all ask me

*Calmly waits for you to ask*

The reason I brought this up is to say, that no matter who you are, whether your questioning yourself or not, you have no obligation to be 100% confident of your sexuality or gender every fucking second of every fucking day. You can question for a millisecond or the rest of your life, but that's okay. 

No one has to be gay a certain way

heh that rhymed

You don't even have to use proper terms for yourself. If you are so confused, that you can't even see straight, you're okay. Just call yourself a human, and be done with it. If questioning your sexuality hurts you, stop and think another day.

Questioning doesn't have to follow a certain form either. I originally thought i was a cross dresser when I realized I hated wearing girly stuff like dresses, it took me around... a couple years? Yeah, a couple years to realize my gender. 

Even know I find it hard to determine my pronouns on a certain day.

Even if you're 99% sure you're straight and you have that mental itch in the back of your head, you're fine. Don't beat yourself up for worrying.

Because questioning is a process that no one should have to speed up or speed down or start  or stop for another individual. It's something that only the questioner should control, no one else.

So gosh fucking damnit, don't feel down in yourself and your queerness

-Mysty*

* (Pronounced like Misty)


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