Ten Letters To Cassidy

Letter Nine

Dear Cassidy,

This is my last letter to you, Cassidy. I don't know if I've moved on but I can say goodbye. I'm not going to spend another minute crying over you. It was crazy to think ten simple letters could fix everything. I could say goodbye to you for the rest of my life, but I don't think I'll ever get over this. How can someone get over a tragedy like this? They don't, but they keep moving on. And I'm going to keep moving on. So this is my last letter to you.

I'd like you to know that I met this sweet guy. He made me smile for a little while, but it wasn't going to work out. He was sweet and all, but I don't feel like dating or falling in love. It's just unwanted drama and heartache.

I've fully decided on my career. I want to be a writer, Cassidy. I want to write poems and novels and even children's books. So that's what I'm going to do, I'm going to focus on one thing in my life and pour my souls into it. It doesn't sound healthy, but it's my process. I'm not going to worry about petty high school drama anymore, what's it all worth in the end? In two years we'll be gone and no one will remember what we did in those small four years. So I'm done fussing over it. I'm focusing on my goals and dreams, on my future now. And Cassidy, your my past, you're not my future.

I wrote you something, you always wanted me to write you a poem. Well here it is.

In the after light
I stare at the sky,
Bright lights don't shine
Like neon lights

Like a plastic bag
I found my soul,
There for a moment
Gone in the next

Where I found you
Gazing up at the night,
Shinning ever bright
For once this time

It was like a Neon light
In your smile for a time,
Glimmering in your eyes
The way you said goodbye

I called this poem "Neon Lights".

You can probably guess why. This wasn't what you wanted, but this is what I felt. And when I wrote these words I let you go. With each stroke of my pen I buried the pain your loss causes me.

So Cassidy, I don't know what'll happen from here. I don't know how I'll move on. But I'm saying goodbye right here, right now. This is it for me Cassidy, my dear lost friend, goodbye. May you rest in peace, no one deserves it more then you.

Forever and Always Love,

Savannah