Rejected for Her

Rejected For Her: 12

Chapter 12: Resisting

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I heard feet chasing after me. I ran faster. I can't do this yet. I got to my house and ran into my bedroom. However, in my haste, I forgot to lock the door. I felt arms wrap around me and I squirmed to get away slightly.

"Let me go." I said quietly.

"No. I will never let you go again." I let out a strained whine, on the verge of sobbing.

"Why are you doing this to me?" I whimpered.

"What am I doing to you?" His voice was soft and right in my ear. I restrained myself from giving into him again. I turned around to face him, letting an expression of anguish slip into my features.

"You're turning me back into the little bitch I was before, back into the girl who couldn't stand up for herself, the girl who was heartbroken after being rejected by her Mate." Matthew growled and his eyes glowed a bright amber.

"Don't speak of yourself that way."

"Don't tell me what to do. You are not my Mate. You aren't anything to me. Besides, it's the truth. I was a nobody when I was found out we were Mates. I was weak. I was beautiful on the inside but the outside, not so much. I was fat. I couldn't take two steps without panting. And I hated myself. I hated myself because I wasn't as good as Eliza. I hated myself because I knew that I would never turn heads or make hearts pound. My one and only hope was that my Mate would love me and then I found out it was you and you tore my heart open, spit in it, and then lit it on fire. So I worked on it when I was with my mother. I worked on slimming down. I trained. I became confident in myself so I wouldn't need anyone's approval and I wouldn't care what anyone thought about me."

"And that's great-"

"Yeah except you're turning me back to the person I hated. I don't want to turn into her when you are around."

"You don't have to-"

"You know what, stop talking."

"Wha-"

"I said stop stalking. 'I will never let you go again'? You didn't let me go. You never had me. You never wanted to have me. And you took whatever hope I had, whatever light I had left and you crushed it under your designer combat boots and left me alone to pick up the pieces. You do not get to waltz back into my life like you own me or like I'm gonna come back to you because I'm not and I will gladly kill myself before I let you turn me into some insecure bitch again. And you know what else, you never apologized. You just marked me as yours. You never ever, not once thought about me. You never asked me what I wanted. Maybe I wanted you to mark me months ago but now, I just wanted to move on. I wanted to find love within someone who actually cared about me. But now that chance is gone because you marked me for your own selfish reasons. So leave. I'll see you during training and school but I refuse to have you in my home or to talk to you. I will find someone to undo the Mark and then you can be free to have someone else as can I."

Matt looked like he wanted to say something else but I shook my head and pointed towards the door.

"We are not happening Beta, please just leave." He looked at me longingly and I cleared my face of any emotion. He nodded his head and walked out. I waited until I heard the front door close to drop my knees and start sobbing. I don't know why I was so upset. Everything I said was true. Everything I felt was real. So why was I hurting? I should be furious with him. I should hate him! But I can't, no matter how hard I try.

I sat on the floor for what seemed like hours before I heard someone knock on my bedroom door. I looked up to see Eliza standing in front of me sadly.

"Hey."

"Hey." I replied with a voice crack.

"What happened?"

I took a deep breath before letting out a shaky one.

"I yelled. I got everything that I need to say off my chest and then I made him leave. And then I cried." I smiled sadly. My sister smacked her teeth and leaned in to hug me.

"I'm so sorry." My brows furrowed in confusion.

"Why are you sorry?"

"Cause..." I looked at her with my eyebrows raised, urging her to continue.

She sighed, "This is all my fault." My eyes widened in surprise and I immediately shook my head.

"No. No, none of this is your fault."

"Are you kidding me? I knew you like him, sis. Hell, I even knew you loved him, but I couldn't let go. I couldn't let you have him. I was so jealous because I knew that on some level, no matter how many times he lied to himself, he loved you too." I scoffed and rolled my eyes.

"Don't roll your eyes, it's true."

"Eliza it was not your choice to reject me and break my heart."

"No but it was my presence and influence that prompted it. If it hadn't of been for me, you would be together right now."

"It wasn't you, it was his own narcissistic, conceited, popularity-loving ideals. This had nothing to do with you." Eliza looked at me for a while, just taking in everything that I said. Then she nodded. She didn't look like she believed me but at least she was going to try.

"Come on, get up, shower, and get ready." She stood up straightening out her shirt and pulling up her workout pants.

"Where the hell are we going?

"We are going to have some fun. I'm gonna make you forget all about our dumbass Beta." Her smile was contagious and before I knew it I was smiling too. I nodded and got ready.

To be continued