SAVIOUR ↣ CARL GRIMES [ON HOLD]

Empty

I cried myself to sleep that night. I woke and my face was dry and sore from all the crying. But it felt oddly good to have let it all out.

I figured I should get moving again. I grabbed a bag and filled it with what was left of the supplies in this old house. I grabbed my knife and gun and headed out the door.

I walked along the edge of the forest and stared at the ground as a I went. I didn't know how to feel anymore. I couldn't cry anymore. I didn't have anymore tears left. I just felt...empty. Like there was a huge hole where a part of me should be. And I guessed that part of me was Carl.

Carl... Just the thought of him caused my heart to skip a beat and my stomach to churn at the same time. Not seeing him everyday killed me a little inside. Sometimes I wish I didn't feel anymore. So that I couldn't get hurt.

But this boy just had to come into my life and make me care again. But I guess, in a way, I was glad that he made me care again. When my family died, I was gone. Just gone. But he brought me back, they all did.

But now, they all could be dead. And I was alive. How was that fair? I should be dead, not them! They don't deserve that. My head is just one emotional train wreck.

I hadn't realized that I had been walking for a while and that the sun was setting. I trailed away from the edge of the forest and found I small, white, house. It was perfect.

I cleared the house and settled upstairs. I didn't cry myself to sleep this time. I just laid awake until I fell asleep. But I didn't for a long time. The feeling of being empty kept me awake.

**Well this chapter was really just about Mikayla's feelings at the moment....but don't worry...it will get more exciting soon...**