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Chapter 7: Second Part

Chapter 7 (Part 2)

Nagpunta si Sef sa cemetery kung saan nakalibing si CASSANDRA GAIL, dala niya ang gitara niya.

Sef:

“Hello there.. ito na naman ako. Gusto ko lang mapag-isa muna tsaka mabisita kana rin. Ang sarap dito sa pakiramdam. Alam mo sa totoo lang may nakilala akong girl. After nung sa atin ngayon lang ulit ako nakadama ng pagkagusto sa isang babae. I tried to keep my heart out anyone’s reach, I keep it inside me, I condition it not to feel that feeling again for many years yet ngayon parang bigla lang nagbago. It was like she effortlessly turn this cold heart alive again. Sobra kitang minahal na nung nawala ka parang nawala din yung buhay ko. Parang dinala mo pati puso ko. And isa pa thinking wala akong nagawa para pigilan yung nagyari. Honestly I blamed myself for what happened. (His eyes started to feel warm.) Matagal ko yung dinala kahit pa alam kung ayaw mo na isipin ko yun. You freed me during your last breath pero wala eh masakit pa rin. Seeing the person I loved so much die with my two eyes. That was.. arrgghh..
Im sorry.. I know you don’t want to see me like this. (Natawa siya sa sarili. He paused for a while. Trying to dry his eyes and just strumming his guitar.)
I missed you.
Oh well.. Pero masaya ako. And I know masaya ka din, kahit ang daya mo.. heheh.
Oh her name is Pheibe, if I got it right..
She’s gorgeous. May pagkakahawig nga kayo eh. I mean not all pero in some cases, like may pagka masa din kagaya mo, “masakiton”, hahaha di biro lang. SPA siya ahh.. same kayo ng program. Ngayong ko lang siya nakwento sayo noh? Busy kasi sa school this time eh. Ang dami kung ginawa. Hayyy ngayon medyo makakatulog na ng maaga.. hayss buhay studyante nga naman.. buti ka pa wala ng iisipin.”

Sandali siya tumigil sa kasasalita. Ilang segundo pay may lumapit mula sa likuran niya.

“Hi!”
Bigla siyang napalingon ng makarinig ng boses babae.

“oh! whoaahh! wooaahh!
H-hi.” muntik na siyang mapatayo sa nakita.

“opps! nagulat ba kita?”
“ no. No. Not actually.
I mean kunti..” sagot niya. “Hoo!”

Napabuntong hininga pa siya habang napahawak sa dibdib niya.

“Grabe siya oh..” may ngiting tugon ng babae.
“Well pasensya..” dagdag nito.
“It’s okay.. I'm fine hehe” saad niya.
“Ikaw lang?” she asked
“Yeahh..” mabilis niyang sagot. “nagpapahangin muna.”
Umupo sa tabi niya ang babae.
“You seem sad” she asked.
“kunti..” sagot niya. “I just missed someone a little..”
The girl look at him.
“Who? Family. Friends. Special someone?” she enumerated.
He smiled. “You.” he said.
She looked at him with an eyebrow up.
“Sorry. I mean her pala..” he pointed at the tomb.
She smiled.
“gago ka din.”
“Girlfriend?”
“Yeah.. long time ago. She died in an accident in front of my two eyes.” he said.
“Oopps.. Sorry for that..” mahinang sabi ng babae.
“No it’s okay.. tagal na yun. Nakamove on na lahat ng tao.” he sadly said it.

Then he look back to the girl. He see that she’s sad. Her eyes were so innocent.

Nakatitig siya kay Pheibe ng unti-unti ay tila nakatitig siya sa isang tao. His heart felt like he’s looking at someone from his past. Someone he’s longing for so long. All that’s in his mind that time was the face of that person. Then suddenly he move his face closer to the girl until he felt her lips in his. After a couple of seconds his consciousness suddenly came back. Nanlaki ang mga mata niya.
He then back off fast when he realize it was Pheib and not that person. His heart is beating fast. His mind goes into panic. He doesn’t know what to say. He was blank for a moment same as the girl. Both of them didn’t expect that. Parehong tumingin sa ibang direksyon. Nakaramdam ng hiya si Sef sa nangyari kaya’t napayuko siya.
Face down.