The Only One Who's Holy (Hayley Williams x Lynn Gunn)

5. The doctors and the nurses they adore me so

I was not going to be able to cope with today whilst being sober. So of course, I opened the third drawer down on the left of my desk, which revealed a half empty bottle of vodka along with a nearly full bottle of wine.

I looked at the clock in my room. 7am. That was an appropriate time to start day drinking, right?

As I poured myself an odd vodka-wine concoction, I thought about last night.

I thought about the moment I finally told Jenna no, and the moment she didn't listen to me.

I shuddered at the thought, not wanting to relive the memory.

Why is it that all I am to people in a fucking toy? Lynn said it perfectly yesterday, the only reason she doesn't beat the life out of me is because I'm her entertainment, and I guess I was Jenna's too.

Of course, I left the house screaming at her later that night after she had gotten what she wanted, so I'm pretty sure me and her are through.

I ignored the urge to cry and instead tilted my head back to swallow the warm, bitter, liquid.

Anyone who says they enjoy the taste of alcohol is a liar, that shit's disgusting. But hey, at least I can relate.

I sat down on the floor next to my desk, downing as much of the gross drink as I could before throwing up.

When I stood back up, I immediately felt dizzy, but as long as I wasn't thinking about last night, it didn't matter.

I decided to pour some of my mix into a flask to bring to school with me ,y'know, for good measure.

Ah, school, the place I have to spend half my life at whilst getting beaten up by dumb bitches who think I'm going to hell.

Not that I was going to name any names..

But at lease the walk there this morning was interesting.

The longer I let the alcohol course it's way though my system, the drunker I got and the less I could remember about yesterday.

Ah, unhealthy coping mechanisms, I knew you wouldn't let me down.

Laughing about nothing in particular, I saw a very concerned looking Gerard standing outside the school gates.

"Gee!" I exclaimed, running over to hug him, but slightly collapsing whilst doing so.

"Hayley what the fuck?"

"What? Don't- don't be such a buzzkill Gerald I'm having fun." I declared, walking into the school gates so that I was now just outside the building.

"If it isn't my favourite fag," oh great, Lynn fucking Gunn.

"If it isn't- if it isn't my, uh," I slurred, stumbling upon my words before deciding "You're a real fucking bitch, Lynn," somehow came out of my mouth.

"Is she drunk?" She asked Gerard, who simply shrugged in reply.

"Hayley, why the fuck are you drunk?"

"It's alllll part of the entertainment, sweetheart."

"Don't call me that." She tensed, her voice sounding aggressive.

I laughed at her dumb attempt to make me feel scared once again.

"Why not, sweetheart? I giggled, not being able to stand still. I think I pissed her off, although I couldn't really tell considering everything was blurry and also moving.

"Answer my question." She demanded, folding her arms.

"This entertainment not god enough for you, sweetheart? You still- you still bored?" I took a step towards her angrily. "I'll try and liven things up."

I swung my fist towards her jaw, but somehow she managed to catch it before my hand collided with her face. (Well- I say somehow, but it probably wasn't too hard considering how wasted I was)

I stared and my hand having been caught by hers. Shit, I was really going to get it now, but I couldn't see the look on her face through my blurred vision.

But instead of a punch or a kick, I felt an arm lean over my shoulder, supporting my weight.

"Get- get the fuck off of me," i protested, trying to move away from her, which only resulted in her holding onto me tighter.

"I'm taking her to the nurse." I heard her say to Gerard. Why the fuck even?

I didn't hear what he replied, but it didn't seem to matter either way, because somehow we eventually made it to the nurses office, even after countless attempts of mine to walk away, which I wasn't able to execute very well considering my state.

I don't even remember what the nurse looked like, or what she said.

I just remembered laying down, seeing Lynn next to me.

And that's when things went black.