Me and My Random Life~

iNstAgRam iS wEirD

Heyyy, I'm back. Yes, i said i was tired but i was scrolling thru ig (instagram) and was bored outta my mind. 

See my problem is, since im so insecure with myself, i make a lot of other accounts under different names. but then someone always finds out who i am, which defeats the whole purpose. I like to be myself, away from people I know, because i have this fear that they will judge me endlessly. 

Right now, I want to make a new account, start fresh, but the thing is...I already have... at least 4. I barely post on any of them. And i wanna make a new account, just to be a different person for a change, you know? Someone who's not ARIEL. And i wanna make a new account but I don't know what I would post. And I know that some people would find out eventually, like my best friends. 

I'm on like Pinterest 24/7 lookin at Ig themes and whatever, but I can't find anything satisfying. 

    I was thinking something like: sunthetic (sun + aesthetic) and I would post pictures of the sun set or rise but like 1. I don't have a good camera 2. I don't really have time for that... 

   Then I was thinking "OH A MEME ACCOUNT" but 1. There are so many of those, and I wanna be different. Be special. 2. I probably wouldn't be able to post much. 3. Yeah, memes are weird lmao

  And then i thought about an account with like writing pieces. Poems, or idk. But once again...it has its flaws: 1. I don't write that well 2. Yeah that's weird...

I also like photography, but like I've said before, I don't have a great camera. I only have a computer...so it's kinda hard to like hold it up to take a picture of the landscape and whatever. 

   Then i thought about like a sad quote page, but like, I dont wanna be that person. I don't wanna post quotes about like how bad life is, etc. I used to follow a bunch of depression accounts, and all they did was make me feel worse. What people need are happy quotes, things to let them know that they are not alone. Things to give them hope. But... that would be hard... 

Ugh please, i need help. Someone either needs to: 1. convince me not to make another account 2. tell me its OK and give me ideas... 

Haha not like any one is going to... T-T No one reads my stuff... hmmm maybe I will write those books. Ughhhhhhhh i just wannnnnnttttt people toooooo loveee meeee 

Lol, im sure a bunch of ppl do love me but like. uk...

well imma scroll thru Pinterest and Ig and see what i can do... <3