Me and My Random Life~

HAPPPPEEEEE NEW YEARSSSS

1/1/18- 9:16 AM

Ok ok so when I was writing the title for this chapter, I accidentally wrote "Happy New Tears" and i was like "wait the goal is to be happier..." ANYWAY

YASSS HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII

Alright, I'm one of those people who kinda hate people who are like really... celebrating... New Years, you know? I'm one of those people who are like "Dude, chill out, it's just another day, big deal." And yeah, it's actually a special day, not really special, but special nonetheless. 

Also, 2017 was really hard for me. I was struggling with depression... sooo I think the reason why this New Years is so... special to me, it because it's my chance to leave that bad past behind me. 

Which is actually really hard. 

Buttttt anyway... ish, I was gonna rant about something else but now I can't remember. HAHA TYPICAL ARIELLLL... Hmmmm I dunno why i'm saying "ish" when I've sworn in this book before. Hmmm... I think I should stop swearing. Well. No. 

I think I should just chill for a while. 

I've actually said like "damn" and "what the hell" in front of my parents, but in my defense, they swore at me when I was like 7... haha actually that's a horrible defense but shhh

Anyway. They actually don't seem to care... apparently my mom says she's heard me say all the swear words before so likeeeee

*shrugs*

Anywayyy... yeah if any of you were wonderinggg... yeah the next update of the Dramione book should be soon. I actually have to leave to see family today, but... I'm working on the plot so :) 

Alsooo it's really weird how much I base things off of my actual life. I guess my dad was right when he said "writers write about what they know". 

Yah like I wrote this story for a story competition and it's called "Tomorrow" (and yeah, maybe I'll put that on my Wattpad once I get it polished and stuff) 

Wellllllllllll... Hmmm actually yeah... so basically it's about this Irish girl, who lives with her idiot uncle in Cali. She meets this boy who's French (he has a girlfriend, so shut up, no, they don't run off and now she has a happy life), and they become friends. HOWEVER... they met when... the Irish girl was like... happy XD... and so... she's kinda slipped into a deep depression... but the French boy kinda fades away from her, too. Like I mean, they become distant. Which is the exact opposite of what the Irish girl needs right now.

I guess, the French boy is spending more time with his girlfriend (yuuuuuuuck) and also, I don't know if y'all know this, but when you spend time with, like, depressed people... I mean... okay okay that sounds like a generalization... Ummmm. 

RIGHT SO... some people when they're depressed, they might be a bad influence on other people. For example, if your friend is depressed and they always come to you for help... then you might start to be depressed too. AND NO, DEPRESSION IS NOT SOME CONTAGIOUS DISEASE. YOU DON'T GET IT FROM JUST STANDING NEXT TO A DEPRESSED PERSON. NO. 

You get the mindset. 

Which is even scarier. You might start to analyze your own life in a negative way. "Oh this part of my life is stupid" "Oh my parents are so dumb" "Oh this friend stabbed me in the back, all my friends are fake". Or... if they self harm, you might begin to think "Oh, it's OK to self harm." because they're doing it and they're still alive. Annnnnywayyyyy I'm getting a little off topic. Where was I? Oh!

Soooo this French boy, right? He's kinda a bad friend, but the Irish girl doesn't really have any other friends :(  sooo... basically the Irish girl calls him up one night and is like "Yo I dont wanna be alive anymore" and hes there like "oh um..." and then he gives her some stupid like cliché advice like "oh life will get better." 

And she calls him like every night and he gives her the saaaaaaaame advice everytime.

//OKAY SO I DON'T REALLY KNOW THE ENDING BECAUSE... well I was rushing to type this story up to meet the deadline... so I kinda rushed the ending. And also I had a word limit... sooo... yeah, but I'll polish it up, and maybe make it longer or fill in the massive plot holes lololol

But yeah :) so that's the story. 

Whoops I'm supposed to be leaving soonnnn 

But anyway yaaa

:D 

I hope you guys have a good year. Cheers.