Caught Up In The Moment But Not In The Right Way (JALEX)

Caught Up In The Moment But Not In The Right Way (JALEX) chapter 6

"Hey, Rian, can I talk to you about something?"

Rian was laying in his bunk checkng his emails but looked up when I came over. "Didn't really give me a chance there, did ya, Jack?" He said sarcasticlly, sitting up but not failing to give me one of his famour smiles.

Thats what I loved about Rian: He was so down to earth. I knew I could talk to him about anything and not be judged. He could make me smile but also knew when to be serious.

I smiled slightly and sat down next to my friend. "Its about Alex. How do you feel about this whole new-new album thing?"

Rian grunted. "I think Alex is an idiot for agreeing to it but I also kind of like the idea at the same time. But that's not what you really wanna talk about, is it?"He asked raising an eyebrow.

I sighed, accepting defeat. That was another thing about Rian. He could always see right through me. He always had been able to. I took a deep breath and stopped thinking because if I kept thinking, I would never be able to get through this if I kept thinking about it. I would overthink it and have a mental breakdown and I really didn't need that right now. I lowered my voice so no one else could hear and let the words just flow right out of me, not stopping until I had finished what I was going to say.

"I'm in love with Alex. I have no idea what to do about it either. I had a dream that I told him and he laughed and yelled at me. My head and my heart are pretty much at war because of this stupid dream and its literally tearing me apart and I can't do a single fucking thing about it! I should be able to talk to him about anything! We're best friends, for God's sake! I just- Rian, tell me what to do,"I said, voice cracking on the last sentence.

Rian opened and closed his mouth, as if deciding on the words to use. After a few minutes or dreadfully awkward silence he said, "Jack, its no secret you love him-to me at least. Alex may be a different story though. I know for a fact that he loves you, anyone could see that, but in what way he loves you is a mystery to me. The only way to find out is to talk to him. Alex would never laugh at you about this. He may be a douchebag sometimes but he does care about you. Just go talk to him."

I groaned. "I've tried, Rian! I really have! But every time I do, something more important comes up."

"Then try harder,"He stated, bluntly.

I sat there and thought about what he'd said, coming to the conclusion that he was right. As always. "Thanks, Rian,"I said, bouncing off his bunk and giving him a light smack on the shoulder.

"No prob, Jacko. If you need anything else, you know where to find me."

I nodded and moved to the front lounge. It wasn't long before I heard Alex's smooth voice, accompanied by Zack's acoustic guitar, singing a tune I had never heard before. But it sounded good. I guessed they'd figured out something for the album. I walked back to where the two boys were and stood in the doorway, just watching them. I was invisable to them. That's how lost they were in the music. Alex had his eyes closed as he sang the words and Zack's back was to me but he was swaying slightly back and forth.

When they had finished trying out what they had done on that song, Alex opened his eyes and saw me standing there.

"Hey, Jack!"He smiled and Zack turned to look at me and give a small smile.

"Hey. That sounded really nice,"I said, walking over to take a seat next to Alex on the couch.

"Thanks,"Zack said, softly.

I nodded and smiled at him. "Hey, Lex, do you wanna do something after the show tonight?"

"Yeah, I think We Are The In Crowd's having a party on their bus tonight,"He replied,scribbling something into his notebook.

As much as I loved those guys, I shook my head. "That's not what I meant. I was thinking just you and me," I replied timidly.

Alex nodded slowly. "Yeah, okay. What do you have in mind?"

"We'll figure something out,"I said putting a hand on Alex's knee.

"Where are we even playing tonight?"The older boy asked.

I shurugged.

"Chicago, I think,"Zack said, standing up and putting his guitar down in the seat he had previously been sitting in. "I'm gonna go work out,"He then muttered, walking out of the room.

As much as I love Zack, I was kind of glad he was gone. I liked having Alex to myself, even for a few minutes. But when I looked at my best friend, he had a frown playing his features and tears welling up in his brown eyes.

"Hey,"I whispered, moving closer to him and wrapping an arm around his shoulders. "S'matter?"

Alex took a shaky breath and rested his head on my shoulder. "I'm an idiot. I never should have agreed to doing this stupid album,"He muttered.

As much as I agreed with him, I couldn't let him go on feeling like he'd completely screwed up. I nuzzled my nose in his hair. "Alex, you're not an idiot. You were just doing what you thought was best for the bands and would make the fans happy. That's been our goal since we started this band- make the fans happy. You really love them and you were willing to stretch yourself out for them. Don't give up but don't rush it. If the album's rushed, its gonna suck and you know that."

Alex picked his head up and looked at me, eyes shining. "Thanks, Jay. You really are an amazing friend. I don't know what I'd do without you."

Alex's compliment made my stomach twist. Friend. Nothing more. I think I just got friendzoned but the way that he said 'friend' kind of made me wonder whether or not he'd really meant just friend. Shit. Why did this whole thing have to be so confusing. This is what I get for waiting so long. Tonight. I'm telling him tonight if its the last thing I do.

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AN- This chapter sucked ass. I'm sorry. :( Comment and vote, please?