Caught Up In The Moment But Not In The Right Way (JALEX)

Caught Up In The Moment But Not In The Right Way (JALEX) chapter 5

When we woke up the next morning it was because Flyzik was angrily banging on the door.

"Jack! Alex! Wake up! God, we are so late!"He yelled through the door.

Alex groaned."Shut up, Matt! We'll be down in a few minutes,"He said, clearly annoyed. "For fucks sake, they probably heard him in China,"He grumbled to no one in particular, throwing the cover off and pulling himself up.

"Well, good morning to you too, Mr Sunshine!"I said sarcasticlly and stood up.

Alex looked at me with a slight smile. "Get ready before Matt has another hissy fit,"He said throwing me a clean shirt and pair of jeans from my suitcase.

I quickly changed into the clean clothes and went into the bathroom to brush my teeth. Alex came in as I spit the toothpaste into the sink. Well that's attractive. He went through his normal routine for fixing his hair. He sprayed hairspray on his messy but cute hair when he had it how he wanted it but sighed when the bottle sputtered.

"Shit. Jack can I use some of your hairspray?"He asked.

I had gone to straightening my hair and we just getting ready to spike it up like I normally did when Alex's question stopped me. "Yeah, sure,"I muttered and handed him my yellow bottle of hairspray. "Damn,Alex. You go through more hairspray than any girl I've ever seen in my life!"I laughed as he sprayed what seemed like half the bottle on his hair.

"It takes effort-and lots of hairspray-to look this good,Jack,"Alex said teasingly.

I rolled my eyes at him but I couldn't help but think that he really did look good. He was wearing black skinny jeans that made his ass look really good and a blue and gray stripped V-neck shirt that hugged the creases of his upper body in all the right ways. I looked at myself in the mirror. I didn't even compare to my best friend. I wore gray skinny jeans and one of my many JAGK shirts. I looked good but I didn't look Alex good. No wonder Alex didn't see me the way I see him. And I doubt he ever will see me the way I see him.

We were back on the tour bus a little bit later, going off to whatever city we were scheduled to play tonight. The five of us-me, Alex, Rian, Zack, and Matt- all sat in the lounge at the front of the bus. Matt's face was twisted in a scowl. He hated being late, and we were pretty damn late.

"You guys need to lighten up! We'll get there when we get there. Damn,"Rian grumbled, standing up and walking back to his bunk.

"Rian's right,"I said quietly, looking at Matt.

He rolled his eyes and turned his attention to Alex. "Are you seriously gonna do another album so soon?"He asked raising an eyebrow.

I guess Alex hald told him, as well as Zack and Rian, when he stormed out after our little fight last night.

Alex smiled and nodded. "Yeah! I've already started writing some stuff for it, too!"

"You're crazy. Absolutely fucking nuts. But if you need some help, you know where to find me,"Zack said quietly, keeping his gaze down.

Alex laughed and nodded. "Thanks, man. I might just have to take you up on that offer."

It kind of hurt that Alex didn't even bother asking me to help but I really couldn't blame him after everything that I'd said last night.

"Okay. We can work on it in a little bit,"Zack said, looking up with a slight smile.

Alex nodded at him and put his arm around my shoulders. "You been awful quiet, Jay. Everything alright?"

I nodded absently. "Yeah. I'm just thinking."

"About?"Alex pressed.

What I was really thinking about was Alex and how much I loved him; how badly I wanted him to be mine and how it would never happen. And frankly, it was killing me on the inside. I had to tell him. And I would if I hadn't had that stupid dream. I knew for a fact that Alex would never act like he had in my dream. But I couldn't stop thinking that he might. Alex was known for being unpredictable. What made this time any different? I was torn to say the very least. My heart was aching to tell him but my conscience was overshadowing my heart by telling me that if I told him, he would never see me as me. That I'd be a freak in his eyes and that everything would change for the worst. Thats what I was really thinking. But what I told Alex was completely different yet very expected.

"Nothing important."

He watched me with eyebrows raised. He knew I was lying but he didn't press me any further on the subject. He just nodded and frowned.

Alex, why must you be so fucking perfect?

"Well, I'm gonna go work on this album. You coming, Zee?"Alex said standing up.

Zack nodded and followed him out of the room. And there I was. Alone. Well, except to Matt who was dead to the world. I rolled my eyes at him and stood up. I had to talk to someone about how I was feeling, and that someone couldn't be Alex. Not yet, anyways.

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AN: I hope you guys enjoyed this chapter! I worked really super hard on it! Chapter 6 will be up very soon. I already have it written so I just gotta type it up. Be sure to comment and vote, please! :)

And, The Reckless And The Brave. Oh my god. Best song ever! What did you guys think about it? I'm so excited for the new album, I just can contain myself! I think TRATB is gonna be one of those songs that saves lifes. <3 I'm so proud of them. xx