Regrets

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I had already grabbed my bag before I opened the door and had at least $20 in my purse.

My running turned into a jog which then turned into a walk. I headed toward the neon sign, a motel.

They wouldn't expect me to go there.

I payed they guy at the front desk and went to my room, then closed the door behind me.

I couldn't take it anymore, it was so frustrating. This huge secret that I can't tell anyone.

I poured myself a hot bath.

Once it was finished pouring, I slipped out of my clothes and slid into the bath tub.

The heat and steam coming from the water soothed me.

I dunked my head into the water and rubbed my eyes.

I don't know what I should do. Should I tell Dean or push him away?

I don't have an answer.

After what seemed like hours in the bath, I got out hesitantly and wrapped the towel around my body.

I dried my hair and myself then got changed again.

I'm sure if I go back, I'll do what needs to be done.

I climbed into bed and wrapped the duvet around me and lay in a foetal position.

Tomorrow.

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