FONDUE

Episode 19 - One last Moment

Layla's P.O.V

Dear Diary,

Chris and I went through so many beautiful moments together. We went to the fair and he taught me how to shoot a balloon. Our lips pucked at the top of the Ferris wheel.

The moment was beautiful. We went to the beach. He carried me in a bridal style on sunset. We ate ice-creams after that. We imagined our first crush, our first boyfriend, our first kiss, or our first 'I love you'.

He told me that he loves me but I'm not sure of myself whether I love him or not. Well, I have to. He's the one. Chris is the one for me and I have to love him.

I remembered what my parents told me, 'If you love someone, you'll know it. You can't force yourself to love someone too." Now, that's the problem.

If I love someone, I'll know it. But why can't I feel that Chris is the one that I 'have' to love? 'You can't force yourself to love someone'.Oh, right, it's because I'm forcing myself to love him which I'm not sure I do. Every moment when I'm with Christian, I don't feel like I'm with him.

I felt like Cameron was with me the whole time. An image of his face always pops in my mind and I still don't why.

Anyway, today is Friday and the big showcase is gonna be on next Monday. I'm going to sing on stage. I'm so nervous. Of course, my aunt and my brother are there for me on that night but I'm not sure if Cameron will. It's okay.

At least Christian is there and he's going to sing with me. On stage. Just the both of us. Singing. On that night. and the song that we were gonna sing reminds me of that idiotic best friend of mine. Cameron.

Tonight Zoe and I are going shopping at forever 21 for the big showcase. I'm going to sing on stage with Chris. With my Chris.

"Layla, just try on the dress already will you?!" Zoe yelled.

"I am trying on it."

"I wanna look!!" she screeched.

"I'm shy. Besides, this dress is just like a second skin."

"C' mon Layla. It can't be that bad."

"I'm not going to perform looking like this. I look like a fucking prostitute!!"

"Just show me bitch!" she said.

I opened the curtains, exposing me in the tight red dress that's just above my knees while I keep pulling it down when the dress keeps going up.

"Wooohhhh... Bet Chris gon all horny tonight," she said while walking towards to me.

"And that's gonna be a no-no for this dress," I said.

"fine. go on and try another one."

At last, I finally bought a black dress just above my knee, which is not to tight and not to lose, and it's glittery. It's a skater dress. A black glittery skater dress.

I love it. It's an awe to be looking at this dress. How I wish Cameron could come and see me perform on stage, wearing this dress. I may not get to be with him but at least I still need him in life. I still need CAMERON FUCKING DANE as my best friend. I would never want to lose him cause If I do, I wouldn't know what to do with my life anymore. Okay, now I'm being so cliched but you get what I meant. To be honest, he is the only person I thought I'm gonna marry someday in the future. The person I thought who's gonna be lying on the same bed next to me every day, the person who's always gonna be there for me and love me.