All Of The Stars ☀ a.i • on hold

do you see them too?

double update :)

songs I listened to while writing this chapter

only exception - paramore

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"I can see the stars

From America

I wonder, do you see them, too?"

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I open my eyes and squint instantly as my eyes adjust to the light. "She's awake! Tim get the nurse" I hear my aunt say and I see Tim get up and hurry out the room, then minutes later a nurse comes in with him and she comes right up to me.

"Hello can you sit up sweetie?" she asks and I sit up surprised at how weak I feel.

"Good! You've been unconscious for 3 days so I wasn't sure you'd be able to!" The nurse says happily.

Hours seem to go by as the nurse and doctor over check everything to make sure I'm doing okay. So right now I have a counsellor talking to me in a room in the hospital, just me and her.

She's seems to go on and on about why I may have tried to commit but I'm not really listening until a sentence she says catches my attention.

"I've talked to the hospital in Sydney and they're going to have a counsellor for when you get there and-"

"wait what?" I ask

"oh didn't you're aunt say anything? You're moving back to sydney."

I look at her and I don't know how to feel am I happy because home? Sad because Ashton? Happy because Ashton? Excited because my mum and the boys? Or scared because what if they think of me differently?

"May I ask why?"

"I'll get you're aunty in here wait a second" She says getting up and going out the room.

My aunty comes into the room holding her phone to her ear.

"Yes she's here, I thought it'd be best for you to explain" My aunt says before handing me the phone that's reads my mum's name on it.

"Mum?"

"Scarlett baby"

"I'm so sorry mum" I say and my voice cracks.

"don't be sweetie, I understand."

"I talked to Ashton's mum" and I feel like my heart's stopped.

"She said you skyped Ashton."

"oh…"

"Its okay Scarlett she knows about what you did… the boys don't though okay?"

"Okay Mum and she also said…?"

"that she forgives you she's understands it's not your fault it just hurt he about her son you know? She freaked out when she found out about the skype that she said those lies to Ashton about who you are and she's sorry."

there's a pause

"but she's still not ready for you to see him okay?" and I feel like my hearts been ripped out, but I'm use to the feeling by now.

"I understand"

"Now the doctors and I think it's best for you to come home to prevent what happened so you won't do it again, because at home is where you can patch up the past that's led you to this okay?"

"okay mum"

"you leave in three days and I'll meet you at the airport."

there's a silence but it's an okay one.

"I can see the stars, from America I wonder, do you see them too."

"What's that mean?"

"That I can see good things will happen when you come here from America and that I hope you see them too."

"I love you mum."

"I love you more." then she adds

"Things are looking up Scarlett, we'll be okay now, I promise." but like most promises this one breaks too.