All Of The Stars ☀ a.i • on hold

sing to you

*unedited*

"If you were here,I'd sing to you"

I spent most of the day lying upside down on the sofa overthinking everything. I know I shouldn't have called Ashton or skyped him. I even lied to him, but what he doesn't know won't hurt right?

I miss him, I miss his kisses, I miss his hugs, I miss the way he would show he cared by wrapping his arms around me and pulling me close, most of all I miss feeling in love knowing the other person loves you back.

flashback

"Scarrrrr wake up baby" Ashton whispers in my ear.

I'm feeling ill and I'm wrapped up in my duvet as Ashton lies next to me trying to succeed in getting me up.

"Ash I feel ill" I reply rubbing my temple gently with my hand in an attempt to to soothe the headache I have.

"Aw scar come here" Ashton says

I slowly turn round so I'm now facing him and he gets up stripping down to just his boxers before he climbs under the covers and wraps his arms around me, placing a small kiss against my neck.

"Just relax baby" Ashton mumbles quietly to me as I start to fall back into a peaceful slumber.

Just as darkness takes over I hear Ashton say "I love you scarlett so much"

-

I didn't realize I was crying until I a tear dropped onto my face, I sit up right on the sofa and I wipe any other fallen tears. I need him, I can't live without him. I look over at the clock, 5pm. Another day wasted moping.

Then the house phone rings and my heart beats quicker as I get up praying and hoping it's him.

"Hello?" I say into the phone

"Hey Scarlett we're not going to be till late sweetie there's a pasta bake in the fridge hope your all okay" Aunt Cheryl answers me and I reply with a simple ok trying to mask the fact that I'm disappointed. I put down the phone and go back to the couch not bothering to eat tonight.

It's soon enough 12am and that means it's 9am in Sydney Australia I don't know why but I start up my laptop and get on Skype hoping that maybe just maybe Ashton will call. But it's soon 12:30am and still he hasn't called. I close my eyes resting my head against the arm rest of the sofa then a notification goes off on my laptop and I shoot up.

*Message from Ashton*

hi Scarlett I have a bit of time want to chat? x

I smile feeling all giddy inside like a year 6 girl that just been talked to be her crush.

*To Ashton*

Sure call me x

and minutes later a call requests comes up, and of course I accept. His face pops up on the screen and my god he looks great he's hairs all curly and messy with a dark blue bandana in it and it looks good.

"Take a picture it lasts longer" Ashton jokes as I feel my cheeks heat up.

"Haha very funny ash" I reply rolling my eyes and trying to cover up the fact I was staring at him.

"So what you up too scar?"

"Well it's nearly 1am so not much" I reply

"1am! Scar you didn't need to stay up I barely know you" Ashton says and that last comment hurt but I know he means no harm but before I can help it my eyes are starting to water as look down at my crossed legs and tears fall onto my pyjamas bottoms

"oh my gosh scarlett are you crying? I'm so sorry I didn't mean to say that it's just hard you know?" Ashton rambles on apologizing everytime he takes a breath.

"Ashton it's fine I get it" I say trying to sound strong.

"I'm going to band practice soon! If you were here I'd sing to you" Ashton says, he talks to me as if he's known me for ages. Which he has but only I really know that.

"if you were here, I'd sing to you" I repeat quietly to myself and make a mental note add that to my lyrics book.

"I'd love to hear you sing can't you sing on here?" I say trying not to show how desperately I want to hear him sing again. But I don't get a reply because a voice from outside Ashton's room says "Ashton the boys are waiting for you"and I know that it's Ashton's mum, and I start to freak out she can't know I'm speaking to him she'll be mad at me.

"Okay Mum just wait a second come here my friend is on sky-" Ashton starts to sat but I cut him off.

"Ashton no don't mention me to your mum okay? I have to go" I say quickly

"What why she won't mi-" Ashton says but I cut him off again with simple a no then I hang up and shut my laptop.

I let out a long sigh and let sleep take over not wanting to overthink everything again.

ew I feel like that chapter sucked so sorry I'll update later to make up for it :P