A Light in the Dark

Chapter Six

Chapter Six:

•~•Lilah•~•

I wake the next morning just as confused and upset as the night before. I can't be with Sam! I think to myself. Then another thought hits me, Well I could if I went dark.... No that won't happen. I know what you are thinking, 'Why doesn't Sam just turn light?' Because he can't, that's why. For whatever reason it only goes one way. I wish it didn't. I wish I could have Sam and have my parents back. That's not how life works though, instead it fucking sucks. I don't want to deal with this. I was never a girl to get stuck in "guy drama," but here I am! Right smack dab in the middle of it! UGH!!

I know!! I can just be kinda quiet and distant towards Sam , and I'll hide away in the library. Ok I have to admit that plan is kinda really flawed but oh well it's morning and that's all I can think of so deal with it.

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About five hours later and Sam is just about the most confused being on the planet. Well second most. He's been asking me if I was ok all morning. Of course I said yes I was when really I'm not. I am no where near ok. I want us both to be of the same godly beliefs so we can be together. Or I want it to not be illegal for two people of different beliefs to be together. Yes that's right ILLEGAL. Pisses me off! I mean I understand because of the whole 'rival between the gods' thing but seriously!!! Ugh! Why does my life have to be so complicated? Oh that's right 'cause it fucking sucks. Why?!?!?!?!

Well back to ignoring Sam and pretending not to be a boiling being of furious wrath.

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•~•Sam•~•

I kissed Lilah and now she's stopped talking to me. I thought everything was fine 'cause she kissed me back but noooo! She's being all weird and distant, she won't even leave the library. I don't think she likes me like that. Grrrr. Why do I have to screw everything up? I finally decide to talk to her right before she goes to sleep. I sprint down the hall and try to catch her.

"Lilah" She turns slowly and looks up at me.

"What?"

"Ummm we are doing the field trip tomorrow." I was going to tell her that too but what I meant to say was 'Are you avoiding me? Did I do something? Was it the kiss?' Of course though I chickened out and didn't say that.

"Oh." She quiets and we just stand there awkwardly until she speaks.

"Well I'm going to bed. Goodnight."

With that she turns and goes through the door, and beyond my reach.

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•~•Lilah•~•

I was hoping he'd stop me and kiss me like he had the first time. I was hoping he would want to know why I was distant. I wanted him to prove he wanted that kiss as much as I had. He didn't. He simply stood there waiting for me to do something. Waiting for me to decide to leave so he didn't have to be rude and ask me to. I thought, just maybe, he actually cared a little.

He didn't. And I wish I could say neither did I.

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