A PROMISE OF TOGETHERNESS

Briefing the details to Graham

I stood up from the place I was sitting and in that process my feet got stuck in Harry foot and I fall on the floor. But before my face could touch the floor Harry hand was on my stomach to hold me. Graham was getting impatient with every passing moment. He asked me again "what is happening here Jen? Are you going to answer that". I have never seen him so angry, I told him that we were just talking. By hearing the word 'talking' he started laughing and said "it doesn't look like you guys were talking and if you see it from my eyes I see something else happening here."

"Are you going to tell me what my sister was doing on your lap Mr.?" This time graham question was directed towards Harry but his eyes were still on me. Harry eyes met mine and then he looked at my brother and said in a casual tone "Nothing we were just talking" to which graham replied "I don't think this is the appropriate way to talk. If you want to talk, you can talk to her like the normal people do." After saying that graham went to the kitchen but before going he asked me to follow him.

When I enter the kitchen graham was standing in front of refrigerator with a bottle of water in his hand. After taking 3 long sip he said "Jen it's the high time can u open up and tell me what's going on between you and harry. I am being noticing this from a long time. I am your big brother you can discuss anything with me."

I don't know what to say. Graham is waiting for my answer and this is the first time when I have not shared anything with him. He rarely confront me and this is the topic which I don't want to talk about. I was thinking about my answer when graham voice broke my thinking process. I looked at him, mustered all courage and told him "I don't believe in love graham,loving someone who won't reciprocate the same feeling is the worst thing in the world. I don't want to talk about it right now however I will tell you each and everything. Let harry leave first."

Graham understand my discomfort as he nodded his head and took a step towards me and embraced me in a warm hug. After few seconds he left me and joined Harry in the drawing room. I cleaned my face and joined them after a minute. Harry was noticing my every move as he can sense what was going inside my brain. I ignored his existence and went to stand near graham. Graham put a hand around my shoulder and ask Harry "when he will leave?". He was shocked from the upfront question but he ignored it and told him he will be leaving right now. After saying that he did a bro hug with graham and came to hug me. After saying goodbye to both of us he left.

"Graham can't we wait till the night hours. Please. I will be more comfortable at that time." I am repeating this continuously from past 10 minute but graham is not taking no for an answer. He just want to know the whole story. After a while I lost all the will power and started narrating the whole story to him.

"You know graham, their is few similarity between Harry and you. As you care for me a lot even he do that. He always take my support even at the times when I am on the wrong side. Not only this he has saved me so many times from my boss. He try to lighten my mood whenever I am sad. He try to act as my guardian when I have to rely on someone. Sometime he act like my bodyguard, he gives me so many advice's. He stop me every time whenever I decide to drink or smoke. He act like my dad when I need a advice, he act like my mom when I need a shoulder to cry on or when I feel alone, sad or depressed. He had done so much for me graham that whatever I say or do will not be enough to justify my point. Actually graham then the problem occur, how can anyone not like a person like him. After staying so close to him I developed some feelings towards him. I told him once but he just didn't said anything, he told me he is not the right person for me. I just don't understand graham why it always happens with me why after few month people leave me and choose someone else over me. Am i not enough for them or there is a problem with me. Why they can't imagine there life with me. After being 24/7 with Harry graham I started feeling strongly for him and the day I accepted my feeling for him I find him with some other girl. When I asked him he told me he never had any feeling for me, he considered me as his best friend nothing more than that.

Then I told Graham everything from the day one to today's date. Our office time, the time we spend in Paris, flight incident, how he reacted when I was sleeping in Alrick room, the basement incident everything. When I stopped reciting my past experience my eyes were numb and even graham was looking on my face with a unknown expression. Before he could say anything I continued " now u tell me ham where was I wrong, what I did was so wrong that people don't stay with me. If I try to move on still I couldn't. I can't stay away from Harry graham because he has done hell lot for me and whatever I do I can't payback to him. I am happy for him but somewhere I can't control myself graham. Trust me ham I have slightly moved on and just to move on from him I need to put my focus on something else. But I am scared of love ham, I don't trust people.

After telling each and everything to graham I started crying. After a long time I have told my feelings to someone. Everything which was bottled up for a long period is out. I was feeling relieved but at the same time accepting the reality made me sad. Seeing my swelling eyes and wet cheeks graham made me lay on the bed. My head was on graham lap and he was massaging the root. When I didn't close my eyes he closed my eyes with his hand and asked me to sleep. I was not sleepy so I didn't close my eyes but after his continuous saying I decided to close my eyes. Last thing I heard was "sleep baby we will talk at the night hours and I am always here with you baby sister, just sleep". I  don't remember when I sleep that day.

When I woke up I was covered in a blanket and my room was surrounded in darkness. I got up and went downstairs. When I reach the last stair I saw my brother talking with Mom and dad. As if they sense my presence all 3 heads turns towards me. They ask me to join them on the table. I went and sit on the seat beside my brother but when I saw the food on table my frown turn to the grin. Cheese pizza and pancakes were made for the dinner. I kissed mom for the food and started eating. When I was done I washed my hand and went upstairs to prepare for the office. When I was done with the preparation I saw graham entering inside the room. Before I could say anything graham said "Jen I need to talk to you". I don't know what to say so I just sat on the bed and asked him to sit next to me.

He started "Jen I trust your decision and before everything I love you alot. There is no problem with you baby, problem is with those guys they can't bear with you. Not everyone have a good choice and you are the best one. Baby forget about those guys and thing about the people who love you. I won't say to stop talking to harry but Jen don't get hurt. Move on from him and there are people those who are better than him. Stay friend with Harry but keep that friendship at certain level and promise me if there will be any problem you will come to me."

I nodded my head and hugged graham. He kissed me on my forehead and asked me whether I want to join him for the ride. I love travelling at night hours so I said yes. He said he just want to lighten my mood. I wore a hoodie over my dress and went downstairs with him. I sat in the passenger seat and he turn engine into ignition. After 30 minute we were standing in front of ice cream parlor, we both had a strawberry flavor ice cream and when graham was satisfied with my mood he brought us back to our home.

It was 1am when I slept again but this time there was a smile on my face. I have a world best brother in the world. This time thinking about Harry just bring the good memories with him. I just wish everything stays like this and I can smile the real smile rather than the fake one.
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"What you mean"-

You matter alot
More than you thought
I appraise you enough
But its not always the love
I love the time we spend
I try to be very observant
We together is what I always want
Friendship is superior than any demand 💕
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