Now I'm gone {Creek}

Helping Depression: Craig Tucker

Kyle and I had just got off the phone with Tweek. Tweek, of course, had no idea I was listening. I kinda zoned out so I didn't hear much if the conversation, but I did hear Tweek practically say he was suicidal. My head shot to Kyle and I forced him to hang up. I started pacing in his room. "Craig, did you hear anything other than that?" I shook my head "no I zoned out" "That was the whole fucking point of this Craig! To hear him say he likes you!" "Okay well I didn't and that's not what is important! He just told you he wants to kill himself and your focused on getting us together?! Just let it go, Kyle. It's not gonna happen. I didn't hear him say yeah I love Craig. I heard him say he has nothing to live for. That's enough of an answer for me." I grabbed my jacket and stormed out as Stan walked in. I ran to Tweek's house and let myself in. I new his parents where at work. When I walked in, I acted like everything was normal. I knocked on his door softly. "Tweek? Are you in there?" I heard him scramble to his feet. "G-give m-me a m-minute!" I stood outside the room for what felt like minutes before saying "Tweek I'm coming in" the door swung open and Tweek looked pissed "What do y-you w-want Craig?" He spoke aggressively. I new my face had softened. The way he had said that hurt me in a way I couldn't describe. I looked at him again "I want you to stop ignoring me for whatever reason you are this time!" Fuck. I hurt his feelings. Shit apologize! "Tweek I-" "Just go C-craig p-please" a tear fell from his eye and he pushed the door to close it. "Tweek stop!" I pushed back against the door, refusing. "G-get off" "No! Look. I'm sorry I said that." I pushed harder, I knew he wouldn't be able to hold on for much longer. "J-just go away!" "I'm not leaving Tweek" I pushed the door open and he toppled over. "Now. Tell me why you have been ignoring me" I could see him processing what to say. "Craig. I c-can't tell you w-why" bullshit "you can't or you won't tell me" "I won't t-tell you" I sighed. "Well I'm staying here until you do tell me. I'm gonna go use your bathroom" he nodded. I started walking to the bathroom. I suddenly hear him scream for me but I already turned "C-Craig w-wait!" I shut the door. I went to look at myself in the mirror, but then I saw the bloodied blade on the counter. I rushed out of the bathroom with it in my hand. He was on the floor sobbing. "Tweek what is this?!" He looked up with fear in his eyes. "C-Craig please-" my anger got the best of me. "WHAT IS THIS TWEEK?!" He flinched flinched at my screaming and sobbed harder. "S-stop s-screaming a-at m-me!" I stood in front of Tweek. As Calm as I could I said "Stand up" and he did. When he stood, I went to pull his hoodie off, resulting in a flinch. I smiled at him and pulled it off. He had cuts all over his arms. I covered my mouth. I couldn't believe it. Apparently I was looking Archon weird"W-would you s-stop looking at me L-like that?!" "Sorry. I just...why?" "Because I actually h-hate myself. I w-want to d-die everytime I L-look in the m-mirror. A-and everytime I-I look at this guy...it m-makes me want to d-die even more b-because I can't have h-him." He just stared at me. "What guy Tweek?" He looked like he was thinking. Then in the cutest whisper tone ever he said "it's...it's y-you..." and then I grabbed his face and kissed him.........is what I wish I could say. I ran away. I don't know why but...I was scared. What if this is so cruel joke? What if he doesn't actually like me and he likes someone else? What if we broke up and our friendship was destroyed? I left him in the dirt for what if's...I am an awful person. I ran into my house and stumbled up the stairs to my room. What if my parents hate me? What if his parents hate me? What if his parents hate him? I fell back on the bed and groaned. I realized I didn't care. I didn't care if people hated use I don't  if it destroys our friendship. All I care about is having Tweek Tweak all to myself. Being able to kiss him and hold hands and do all that stupid cheesy couple stuff. I wanted that. But with him? I need that. Hopefully he would forgive me and maybe, just maybe we could be together. I was going to by him flowers and apologize tomorrow morning.

--time skip to 3 AM--

I was awoken by my phone vibrating. Who the fuck is calling me at 3 in the morning? I decided it was probably a wrong number. The good side of me made me answer so that I could tell them they where mistaken. So I did, but...it wasn't a stranger.

"Hello is this Craig Tucker?"
"Uh yeah. Who is this?"
"Nurse Karla of hell's pass hospital."
Why the fuck am I getting a call from the hospital.
"Uh okay, why are you calling me at 3 in the morning?"
"Well...I'm sorry to be the bearer of bad news but it appears someone you know tried to commit suicide."
What? Who? Why? How did they know to call me?
"Your name was in his suicide note and-"
"Who was it?" I questioned
"Do you know a boy named Tweek Tweak?"

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Okay so first off, I know the hospital doesn't call you when you are in someone's suicide note, it was just for the storyline cut me some slack okay? I also know you are incredibly pissed at me but just stay with me, it gets better I swear. Hope you enjoyed. Noelle out! 💞