~Current mood: numb~
♡ I really don't understand why I'm still here. I'm not wanted, I'm not needed, I'm nothing special. I have one friend I can talk to and I only talk to them in person and I don't even think she really needs me here. I tried to cry but I couldn't anymore. I'm just numb. I'm too emotional yet at the same time I feel emotionless because I just can't seem to feel much anymore but when I do I feel too much. I honestly just feel so lonely that it makes me sick. I just wish I had more friends so that maybe I could explain all of this to them but no I'm writing it down in a book that no one will waste their time reading because I'm worthless. I'm so fucking worthless. At one time in my life I was happy and now I fear happiness because it's something so foreign to me. I may fear happiness but my biggest fear is loneliness and that's exactly what I'm feeling right now. I hate feeling alone I hate feeling like nobody gives a shit about my life. It sucks knowing that I care so much about people and they couldn't care less. I just wish people would appreciate me while I'm here. ♡
