Melting the Ice

35; halcyon

"halcyon [hal-see-uhn]"

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(adjective) In our list of most beautiful words, halcyon is by far the happiest. Halcyon is defined as happy, joyful, carefree and idyllic. We love the way halcyon rolls off the tongue; it is a smooth, delicate sound. We are thrilled to know that such an aesthetically pleasing word holds such a delightful meaning. After all, happiness is always beautiful.

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In the following week, everything goes back to how it used to be. Meaning everything is alright again, especially between Zach and I.

I also get rid of the ugly plaster on my foot that made my life so much harder. My ankle healed like it should and the Doctor says everything is fine and I can do the normal activities again but I still have to be careful.

I've also started taking the vitamins my gynaecologist prescribed me and I'm paying him a visit the next week again. Zach insisted on coming with me this time.

He's pretty excited about being a father. I didn't think he'd be that cool with it, but he's really happy and even more protective. He's constantly asking me if I need anything and looking out for me. When he's not at home, he regularly texts me, asking how I am and if I want him to bring me anything.

I have a feeling I'll gain a lot of weight if he's going to put this up. He'll also spoil me and then he'll probably curse me for being so needy in a few months. When I told him that, he only laughed and brushed my comment off, saying that he'll do everything in his power so I'll feel good.

In the evenings, he likes to lay his head on my stomach, placing his palm against it, and just stays like that. We don't talk much then. I feel like he needs a few quiet moments to himself because he becomes relaxed after that.

He's also got a new game coming up in two weeks and I'm excited to be there for him yet again, admiring him dominating the ice and showing the people why he's called the best.

We're meeting his friends for a dinner tonight because one of them has a birthday. I still don't know all of their names and it makes me guilty, so I want to learn them all today. Zach also said their wives/girlfriends/current flings will be there so I won't be the only woman and so I won't be bored. But then, he also implied that if I'll get bored, he'll make sure to make it interesting for me. And that's what sparked my excitement.

Zach hasn't told his teammates about my pregnancy yet. We've both decided to wait for the first trimester to be over because the first three months are the most risky ones and anything could happen, although I'm not thinking about the complications or what could go wrong.

I haven't heard from Miles, but I'm so angry at him that I don't even want to see him or even think about him. Zach doesn't even want to hear about him anymore. He told me that he will never be able to see him near me again or leave me alone with him.

Truthfully, I don't even want to hang out with him right now. He's been nothing but mean and off around me lately and I'm tired of that constant negativity from him.

I found out he has feelings for me, feelings that run deeper than a friendship, but he has to understand that I don't feel the same and I never will. I'm grateful for him, he means a lot to me, but in a friendly way. I love Zach, though. And I'm carrying his baby and planning my future with him.

"I've been thinking about us moving to your house and I've been thinking about some renovating ideas that I want to go through with you when we'll get a chance," Zach tells me on the drive to the restaurant where we're meeting others.