//Demon in the Light// Sesshomaru x reader

His Words, My Heart

The hazy light of morning assaulted my eyes as I slowly came too. I heard the wind blow and twigs snapping in the distance. I felt horrible, my head hurt, my legs were weak, and my heart broken. I reluctantly propped myself up at the stump of the closest tree I could find. My eyes had finally adjusted to the light, slightly easing the throbbing sensation in my head. I glanced up ever so slightly and saw a put out fire. It gave me a slightly sick feeling all over, seeing it felt like I was looking in a mirror. I hated that. The fact that my heart, which was once bubbly and full of fire, is now completely put out and riddled with burnt out ends of foolish feelings.
The twigs snapping were no longer in the distance, I could tell by the suddenly loud crunching of leaves that he was standing right there.
"Lay down," he said. I remained silent and didn't move an inch.
"Don't ignore me, just because you can't understand that I can't feel the same- *sigh* Just lay down so I can help you, you've lost a lot of blood from the wound in your leg," I could tell that he had stopped himself from saying something that actually meant something. But I knew he meant well so I did as he asked. Once I was down I could see his pale face. When my back hit the ground and my heart skipped a beat, leaving a thick, empty feeling in my chest for a moment. I refused to look at him, I turned my head away from his. He got down in a squated position and unwrapped a bandage around my calf and replaced it. He then began to lift up my top. My hands shot around his wrists.
"What are you doing?" I questioned.
"I just told you, I'm trying to help you," he said in a low tone, refusing to look at me. My silence made realize that I was still in complete confusion.
"A when I had picked you up and began to fly away, you were shot in the side. It wasn't very severe, but it gave you quite a nasty cut,"
"Oh," I said in a defeated tone.
"It seems fine, I doubt it will get any worse" he says quietly due to the awkward silence.
"That-that's good" my words stumbled out of my mouth ached by the pain of him lifting my torso to put my top back to its place.
"Do you need any help sitting up?" He says concerned.
"No. But why do you care?" I say way harsher than I intended.
"Im not exactly sure what you mean but, I know that you are hurt, is it wrong to care?"
"Yes. Especially when you spend all night tearing me apart by saying you don't. And what's going on, you aren't acting like your usual anti-me self." I said as I propped myself up against the tree again.
"*sigh* I-I know that you are in pain-"
"You said that already" I say annoyed.
"Let me finnish. As I was saying, I know that you are in pain, because of the way I talk down to you and act like you mean nothing. After last night I realized that I wasn't saying the right things, I only wanted to hurt you. I wondered if my hate would be the last thing you heard in your lifetime. It opened my mind to the possibility of me caring for you. But it's just easier if I can continue to ignore that you could possibly be someone I care for. Now I know I shouldn't have let you join me in the first place. I shouldn't have even let Rin join me-"
"How can you even say that?"
"Because, she-she was just the beginning." His words became quiet as he finished his sentence.
"What?" I say confused.
"She was the first human I ever- I can't do this." He said as he swiftly tried to get up from his squatting position he was in. I hesitated, but I grabbed him by the shoulder and turned him to me, all the while pulling him very close. I was going to kiss him, but he had this flicker of fear in his eyes that disappeared as soon as it came.
"Are you scared of the fact that I'm completely in love with you?" I asked quietly.
"I-I don't know" he was a completely different person. He was vulnerable for a single sentence. His lips radiated hot air onto mine, it was like a dream, but I could never be content with just that. He tried to turn away, but as he did so, I used all of my strength to push myself upwards while turning his face to mine. I was putting all of my weight onto him, but he didn't fall back. He was looking up at me as my face was tilted downwards to come parallel with his. It was practically the same situation, but this time I had more control.
"You can't escape. I know you can love me."
"Why, are you so persistent?"
"Sometimes, I don't know" my head tilted down a bit as I looked as his lips. He put his arm around me and I put my hands gently on his shoulders. I pulled him closer and closer, until I was so intoxicated by his breath that I couldn't stand it anymore. My hesitation flew out the window as I gently pressed my lips against his. I felt him kiss back and leaned forwards enough to push him over. I was now completely on top of him as we lay on the ground in a passionate kiss that lasted a blissful eternity. When we parted I looked him in the eyes and said,
"I have no clue why you've decided to give into me, but promise me that you won't pretend that this never happened and that you still feel nothing."
He said nothing, but he looked in my eyes and held me tight, he rolled over so that we were both on our sides and said,
"As much as I want to, I can no longer ignore that the love that was my weakness is my invincible strength."