🔥🏀Antoinette's POV🏀🔥
It's been a week... I am silent, don't really talk, and am the only one who hasn't cried. I've just been blasting music, drinking water, school(very little of either), running, gym and basketball... But, everyone that knows me, knows working out and stuff like that is to blow steam. Writing, drawing and at certain times, dancing to either process my thoughts or to just escape.
"You alright?" Blake asks from the other side of the phone; he missed his flight so he gets here tomorrow and is moving into... *drum role* The house next door! I saw the moving van the last 3 days and I'm glad. But I can't bring myself to put on a real smile...
"Ummm... Yea! I'm great!" I plaster on a fake smile that would fool anyone but him and Aiden. And... Kellie... But that's all fucked up so... Yea:)
"Nice try. Talk to me please?" He pretty much begs.
I roll over onto my stomach on my bed and pull the sleeves to my team shirt up and immediately regret it... 1 week and a half ago I cut... But it helps I guess... I don't know how to explain it... It takes my mind off of my other pains... It just helps in a way no one else besides, Max, Alex, Aiden, and Bryce get...
"Antoinette Arianna James... What's that?" He asks referring to the fading cuts... SHIT MOTHER FUCKING BITCHES OF ALL FUCKING CUNTS!!!
"You know what that is Blake... I showed you and got talked to the day after... Just stop please? I don't want to talk about it... Please?" I practically beg and can feel the tears start to prickle in my eyes again. I can't deal with it all... I've been writing poems like crazy, running countless miles a day, doing restless workouts, filled a sketchbook and half, and have danced to about every song on my phone... It's all helping till it comes to actually talking about it.
"Fine... But we were going to have fun tomorrow... Now we are going to unpack my room to a livable space then we're talking... In person... You hear me?" He asks and I can practically call the sparkle in his eye an ice cube from how excited he is to finally meet... But if I try to show I'm happy I'm scared the other emotions will show too, so I just nod and fake another smile; something I've come to perfect, even I fall for it sometimes.
"K... I got to go Blake. Can't wait to see you tomorrow!" I say and try to sound happy and excited but I know he's not fooled,fortunately, he lets it slide. Thank god!
"Bye Bitch. Can't wait either! Tomorrow will be interesting. I love you?" He almost asks the last part...
"I love you too, Weirdo." I say and actually smile. And it feels way better then the fake ones. We haven't said 'I love you' to each other since he confessed to developing feelings for me a couple months back.
And for once... I'm not scared to face reality. Whether I like him or not... I know he won't force me because he knows what happened... He knows everything...
He smiles as if in relief that I said it back and hangs up.
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That was pretty much just a quick filler...
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My so called easy life
De TodoHard home life. Rough past. Fake smiles. Fake emotions. Real friends. Real pain. Antoinette Ariana James. She has all this and more. She hates her past and works to make her current better. But life just isn't on her side. Her twin brother Aiden lo...
