he wants to change
he says it will only be 2 days
he will try to change
he tells me not to worry
he makes sure I'm okay with it
he is not mad
he wants to treat me better
.
but can't you see that I'll love you either way?
can't you understand I don't mind the jokes?
I don't mind the toying,
playing of my heart.
I don't mind the fake yelling.
I don't mind any of it.
I tell you this, i say it's fine.
"You're fine"
"It's okay."
but you don't believe me.
I love you so much, it's unfathomable.
i care about you too.
you say you feel sick and all I feel the need to do is take your temperature and make you soup.
you say youve been talking to an old girl crush and I instantly want to hold you tight and have you to myself.
11:11 has been passed, and now you are all that occupies my thoughts.
I can't distinguish dreams and reality in my head anymore. I wish it would happen again. all of it.
I wish I took the chance to kiss you in the dark.
I wish I held on for longer, grasped tighter.
I miss your fragrance, your warmth, your precense, your laugh, your smile, your all of the above and more.
we aren't over,
but I have a nagging feeling in the back of my mind that you will tell me it's over.
you'll say it's you, not me.
you'll say you can't change
you'll say you're not good enough for me.
but I love you.
I always will.
I'll keep you, as long as you keep me.
I love your flaws, quirks, habits, hobbies, questions, laughs, expressions.
I love it all.
I hope this lasts for a long time, because I couldn't bear the thought of losing you.
