BULLSH*TPROOF

Epilogue

ARMIE JUNG'S POV

Nagising ako na katabi siya. Ang sakit ng katawan ko. Dammit. I saw the blood stain. So totoo nga? May ngyari nga.. I messed my hair out of frustration. Armie, Kalma! Deserve niya. Inabot ko sa floor yung damit niya. Saka to sinuot. Kinuha ko na yung mga damit ko sa floor. Linabas ko na yung luggage ko. I still need to go. My mind keeps saying that I should but my heart says I can't. I've gotten mad.

I closed my eyes. Ang sakit pala talaga nun? Ang sakit ng katawan ko. I took a bath. A bubble bath. Magiisang oras na ata akong nasa bathtub. Parang ayokong umalis. I must go but it pains me to leave him.I will try my best somehow to be strong. Nagbihis na ako. My eyes are swollen, so I put some make up. It hurts even when I take a breath pero kung magiging masaya naman siya, I'll be happy too. I saw him sleeping like a baby. I leaned for one last kiss. I closed my eyes because tears are starting to stream.

"I love you, Jin so damn much. Good bye." I kissed him. It was just a smack but it means everything. Tumayo na ako at isinulat ang good bye letter.

Dear Jin,

              I'm so sorry for giving up on you. I'm so sorry for leaving you. Please be a good father to your son and a good husband to Kene. Please love them, take care of them and guide them. Please forgive me for leaving you.

I love you Jin and I don't regret anything that we did last night.

Love, Armie

Ilinagay ko na yung good bye letter kasama kung divorce paper. It's my fault for making my world crushed. I kissed him again and I walked away from him. Kinuha ko na yung luggage ko at pumunta na sa labas ng bahay. I saw Soohyuk standing there.

"You ready?" I nodded.

/flashback

"It's okay, Armie. You still have us. If Jin don't like you, I'm here to catch you."

"Soohyuk... Isama mo na lang ako kung saan ang punta mo."

"Wag kang magdecision ngayun dahil galit ka, Armie. Pagisang beses pa na umiyak ka dun na kita isasama."

/end of flashback

Sumakay na ako sa sasakyan niya.

I really tried going a day without you but

The unbearable pain holds me in

I have to try loving without you there but

I don't have a small enough amount of space

"Yah! Patayin mo nga yung radio."

I shout out to you, but it'll go unheard

Even so, today, I again, only shout your name

"Ayoko nga. Ang ganda ng kanta ee."

You're the only one I Madly miss, You're the only one I miss to death

I try forcing you out but there's only you

You're the only one I Madly miss, You're the only one I miss to death

I tell myself that I'm over you but it's only you

I keep missing you

You're the only one I miss

"Isa! Soohyuk! Hindi mo papatayin yan?! O ako ang papatay sayo."