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Love through a Screen

Don't mind me, just writing something that came to mind (:

Enjoy

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I only know him through the screen.

I've seen his pictures.

I've watched his videos.

Seen how perfect he is even if all I can see is the words he types and the laughs we share through the mic.

He's so charismatic, he's perfect, and passionate about what he does and it leaves me wondering why he chose me.

So many people he speaks to, so many followers who love him.

Why did my simple message get through?

Why were we brought together so sweetly and why is it tearing me apart so bitterly?

His soft and sweet features leave me smiling and searching for air.

Yet when I express how amazing he is to me..

He's dead set on denying it.

Am I the only one who knows his insecurities?

Am I worthy of even knowing?

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Why did it take so long?

Why did we never touch this subject?

Why did I just now gain the ability to see him like I am?

Panting.

Sweating.

Moaning.

Begging.

Our sickest fantasies combined to make a beautiful act that leaves us shaking and high on our edge.

I leave for my plane afterwards.

Satisfied and elated with our dirty secret.

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His insecurities still don't fade.

It hurts.

My words aren't enough.

But I wouldn't believe someone across the screen anyways.

Because despite the night of heat we shared..

Someone else will claim him like I can't..

And it'll be the bitter death of me.