Rejected? Regret it.

Butthurt

Jesse to the side >>>

EDITED

Berania's pov

Chapter 4

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So it's been a week since I've talked to Connor or even seen him for that matter, he totally disappeared. It's like he fell off the face of the earth or something. He hasn't been at school.

Everyone's been talking. How strange right? Well yeah they've been talking about how I accepted Connor's rejection. I don't see why they're so interested.

Anyway I've been talking to Alexander. Remember? The baby blue eyed hottie who helped me when I was dying. Just kidding I wasn't dying but I did get the wind knocked out of me by a dodge ball and flew into a wall. Either way we've been talking and he asked me to hang out on Friday. It's currently Thursday morning so I'm getting ready for school.

I woke up and as usually took a shower. I walked to my room which is reasonably big. It's about 20×25 and has a walk in closet which I adore. It's filled with many clothes. Mostly from hot topic, forever21, Pacsun, and Ross because I'm cheap.

I pick out my favorite sleeping with sirens shirt and some black skinny jeans. I put on my black vans and start to blow dry my hair leaving it in long waves.

I head out grabbing my backpack and locking the door. Walking to the bus stop I wait for the bus to come. I finally found out no names name. ( does that make sense? Lol ) his name ia actually Bryan. He's still a creep even if he is cute.

The bus finally comes and I see Alexander already on it. I sit by him and we talk about some random things. He looks really good today. His golden brown hair is flying in all types of directions but it looks super attractive. He's wearing a black v neck and blue skinny jeans that aren't too tight and not to baggy. They fit him just right. ( lol creeper ) he's also wearing some black and white converse. His black leather jacket gives him that badboy rep but he's a total sweetheart. Well to me anyway.

The bus finally enters the school parking lot and we make our way to the front doors. A lot of guys are staring my way and I'm surprised. Well more than surprised when Alexander grabs my hand in his and smiles at me. We walk together hand in hand to my locker where he hesitates to let go but he does eventually.

He told me to wait for him after 3rd period so we could go to lunch together. I agreed. He left and I grabbed my textbooks from my locker and made my way to my math class.

Mr. Hall was extra boring today. He was talking about how shapes and numbers were formed together to create geometry. Math sucks! Finally it was over and I waited for Jesse to exit the class so I could talk to him. He's been avoiding me since I sort of rejected him as an option to date.

He came out and I grabbed his wrist and pulled him into an empty classroom. How cliche right? Well anyway we needed to talk. "Hey what the hell. Oh it's you." He said 'you' as if I'm a murderer or something. "We need to talk", I said. "About what? There nothing to talk about." He said bluntly. "Yes there is. You held my hand. And you hugged me. I was okay with it as friends because they do that but your intentions weren't just as friends. I'm sorry if I hurt you in anyway but i--" He didn't let me finish because he kissed me. He literally kissed me. I pushed him off and just looked at him. "Are you fucking serious?" I asked him. "I rejected you as more than a friend type of guy and you kiss me?" He only did it again this time harder pushing me up against the wall and grabbing my ass. He groaned. I was disgusted. He was my friend and he was trying to be more than what we were. We were only ever going to be friends and he needs to understand that.

So I did the only thing I was left to do. I kneed him in the balls. He howled in pain but I had to do what I had to do. He looked to be in pain. So that's when I told him. "I am your friend, okay. Only your friend. You want to be more than friends I get that but I don't. I'm sorry Jesse." I said. With that I got out of the classroom and went to my 2nd period. Which I was late to and my teacher was pissed to say the least.

The rest of the day went by fast after that. I ate lunch with Alexander. We talked about our 'date' it's a date now before it was just 'hanging out' but now it's a date.

I went home and did my homework. I ate some pizza and just went on twitter and stuff. I fell asleep later that night. It was a deep sleep. I was dreaming. Yep. I fell asleep dreaming about everything. About my parents, my ex. Connor, Alexander, Jesse. Everything.

I woke up in the middle of the night with tears spilling out of my eyes. Thinking about my past was just horrible. I hated thinking about that. I moved away from the U.S for a reason. I moved back to the U.K for that same reason. Death.