(This is set when phil had quite a large following and dan hadn't started yet. Dan and phil are dating)
Dans POV
I walked aimlessly around the mall waiting for phil who had to go drop something off at his mums and was going to take his car, drive separately and meet me here.
"Dan!"
"Hey Philly can we start shopping?"
"Yeah come on!"
He looked around to see no one was looking, kissed my nose, grabbed my hand and pulled me into H&M. We looked at different clothes and chatted but ended up not finding anything to take our fancy so we decide to head the food court before continuing. Just as we got up there we heard screaming and a group of about 25 teenagers ran over to us. They pushed me out the way and grabbed onto phil laughing and screaming as I fell to the floor.
"Ow" i whispered to myself.
I looked up at phil and saw he didn't even look. I tried to get to him but my anxiety started going through the roof. At this rate I was going to have an attack and phil gave no shits.
"Phil?"
Nothing...
"PHIL?"
Nothing...
I tried again to get through the crowd but I just got elbowed and kicked. Pain shook through my body as more teenagers attacked me to get to phil.
I felt ab attack coming on so I ran and sat on a bench about 15m away but still phil didn't notice. I felt bruises forming on my stomach, back, arms and legs. I ran to the toilets. Sitting in a cubicle not caring joe dirty it was I brought my knees to my chest, my arms around me and sank my head down as I cried. I was in unbelievable pain. I rocked back and forth unable to breathe as I had a panic attack. Phil usually calmed me down but he doesn't care anymore so I sat there crying slowly feeling like I'd slip out of consciousness. This one was one of the worst attacks I've had to far. My heart stung and aches.
I grabbed my phone and called phil.
Answer phone.
Louise
Answer phone.
Mum
Texted me she was busy.
Finally I called Zoe sugg. She had felt with this before but she lived in Brighton. She was my only shot before I faint though.
"Hey dan!"
"Help m-me z-Zoe."
"Hey what's going on?"
"P-panic attack-k phil-ls fan-ns are cr-crowded ar-round him. They-they Huey me-me when I tr-tried to get-et t-to him. I-I'm in a- a mall bathroom."
"Ok Ok errm I would tell you to breathe but I know you can't as I'm not there... errrrrm JOE!"
"H-help"
"Ok joe is in the mall in London Christmas shopping today I'll get him to help you I'll call him Ok?"
"Pls hurry... it-t hurts-s"
"Ok I'll hang up bye!"
She hung up and I put my phone on the floor feeling the walls closing in.
-=-5 minutes later-=-
"Dan are you in here?"
It was joe.
"H-help."
I shakily unlocked the door and saw joe and Caspar. They ran over to me and wrapped they're arms around me.
"It's okay. Its all going to be okay."
I felt pathetic crying into the shoulders of the boys but my panic attack had gotten so bad my hysterical tears were hard to stop.
"Match mine and joes breathing ok?"
I nodded and slowly changed the pace of my breathing. My anxiety slowly melted away.
"Thank you b-boys."
"It's okay. We love you dan. How about we take you home?"
I just nodd and they help me stand as I'm weak.
"Ow!"
They accidentally touched my bruises. Lifting my shirt they gasp at my chest almost entirely purple.
"Omg they really did hurt you. Let's get you out of here ASAP."
As they walk me out of the toilets through the mall I look in a mirrored wall and see my face. I have a black eye and both are red and puffy.
As we head down the escalator I see phil sat talking with the group still. Joe and Caspar follow my view and see him. Caspar suddenly leans me on joe and runs over to him. I just sigh knowing there is nothing I can do and joe just helps me to his car and lies me across the back as we drive to mine and phils. I felt my self drift off to sleep.
Caspars PoV
I walk over to phil.
He looks at me smiles and waves. I just glare at him. Confused he tell the teens he'll be back and walked over to me.
"What's wrong with you Caspar?"
"What's wrong with me? What's wrong with you?"
He looks confused still.
I just growl and take out my phone and show him my texts from Zoe of everything from him having an attack alone to his bruises. Then I show him a video I took as joe calmed dan down as he cried hysterically.
" Oh my god. I'm a monster!"
"No offence but you are! That broken boy was attacked and you didn't care and he had a panic attack in the toilets and you didn't even think he was gone. He is going home with joe right now all bruised and beating still crying!"
Phil stares at me unbelievably.
"You're coming with me."
I grab his collar and pull him to my car to take him to his and dans I'm beyond pissed. He promised he'd fix the breaking boy. He's breaking him more. Soon he will beyond fixing...
Dans PoV
I awoke and I wasn't in the car I was in my bed. Joe must have carried me in. I slowly sat up, my entire body stinging and throbbing. I took off my clothes so I was just in boxers and looked at my body. I was covered in bruises from head to toe. I felt disgusted in my own skin. I was so focused on my bruises I didn't notice the boys open the door until I heard 3 gasps. I turned around and saw them all standing there tears in they're eyes and phil with a pink cheek. Joe had got a tad too annoyed and slapped him but phil knew he deserved it.
D-"I-I..."
P-"oh my god"
He stepped towards me and I just stepped back a bit.
C-"dan... your covered."
Phil put his hand out to touch my cheek so he could turn my head to see my eye but it brought me flashbacks of the crowd and I flinched before backing against the wall and sinking to the floor, hissing at the pain it gave my back.
P-"babe...?"
J-"don't call him that he doesn't deserve this."
C-"joe calm down"
D-"shhhhh... phil.... do you care?"
P-"yes."
D-" do you love me?"
P-" of course I do."
D-"why did you forget about me?"
P-"I.. i-i didn't I-"
D-"NO!"
P-"dan you have to understand that my job is these fans. They keep me earning money. You have to realise that dan! We can't be together if the fans are going to make you this jealous!"
D-"jealous... you think this is jealousy! The bruises covering my body are jealousy. Me shaking rocking back and forth crying in a mall bathroom having a panic attack is jealousy! No this isn't jealousy. I love your fans but I am in pain and it's not them... it you! I was in pain and I'd be fine with it if you helped me up and stopped them beating me up but you didn't care!"
P-"THEN WHY DO YOU STAY WITH ME THEN?" He stepped closer to me so I backed away slowly as he got angrier and closer. Caspar and joe had left to the lounge for a while.
"WHY DO YOU STAY? LEAVE FOR ALL I CARE! IF YOUR GOING TO FALL IN LOVE WITH ME THEN OTS GOING TO BE EVEN NOT ME LOOSING EVERYTHING FOR YOU!"
I was now against the wall next to the coffee table scared of this angry phil.
"I-I..."
He rolled his eyes angrily.
"PATHETIC DAN! THIS IS THE BEHAVIOUR OF A BRAT! WHEN ARE YOU GOING TO START ACTING YOUR AGE FOR ONCE. TAKE A LOOK AROUND YOU BECAUSE NEWS FLASH YOUR NOT A KID ANYMORE."
He was holding my wrists tight against the wall my cuts starting to reopen and bleed. I was now full on crying in pain of my bruises on the wall and my cuts that he knew about and heartbreak.
Joe and Caspar came in just as phil let go and I went crashing down into the coffee table it smashing beneath me. I writhed in pain as glass dug into my back and the others just watched in horror.
I screamed and rolled off the glass my bruises aching as I rolled on my stomach and joe pulling the glass out my back.
Phil looked horrified just realising what he'd done. Caspar went to get bandages for my back and the cuts he'd known about from dans depression but just realised they were recent.
-_-when they finished cleaning up the glass and cleaning dan up.-_-
P-"dan I'm so sorry."
D-"you hurt me phil."
C-"mentally and physically."
J-"even we saw from the corridor how scared dan was when you were shouting at him."
P-" I promise I won't lay a finger on you again and if I do then I will allow jaspar personally kill me."
D-"deal... I love you."
P-"I love you too."
C-"before we get too sappy... dan? When was the last time you.. you know... cut?"
D-"I errm..." I started crying again. "4 days ago"
J-" dan... if you feel like that again please tell me Caspar or phil."
D-"Ok"
