The Lone Rogue

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The room is silent everyone frozen in their spots. The Alpha still on the ground looking towards me shock written on his face and without warning he begins laughing too, the rest of the pack visibly relax at that. I Look towards Alpha Gabriel in shock, he gets up still laughing and the pack joins in once again.

"Alright, ill admit that was my fault." Beta Xavier confesses amusement bright on his face while the Alpha just shakes his head with a smile. This pack must be crazy.

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I'm wheeled back into the room from earlier, it still smells of the compelling sent of the Alpha and I breath in slightly memorising the sent. My chair is put next to the bed but I am not tired. The Alpha sits on the bed near me. 

"What's your name?" he asks still knowing I am unable to answer. I try to think, do I even have a name, if I do what was it. Everyone had called me mutt before I escaped, though I know it is meant for lesser wolves. Just thinking of the past, images and memories flash across my eyes, cages, wolves, teeth, blood and lots of it. 

I just shrug my shoulders sadly, I don't have a name, just another sign that I don't belong, that maybe I am a mutt. The only thing stopping me is freedom and my will for it. Though I may not deserve it, I long for it.

"You don't have a name? everyone has a name." With no intention of replying I just look at my lap sadly not wanting to embarrass myself more. "It's okay, ill give you one."  he said. 

Zoning out, his face concentrated he thinks. Turning towards the window his face lights up. I too look out the window not seeing what he does.

"Eira! it means snow. It's beautiful and reflects the moons glow. A great warrior named Eira fought in the War between werewolves and vampires before there was peace between the two. after the war was over and she defeated the leader, she also died exhaustion and wounds too severe to survive, all land was covered in snow after she died, whenever winter comes with heavy snow we know it is her embracing the land and werewolf kind, spreading peace and harmony throughout." 

I look to Alpha Gabriel surprised he thinks I am worthy of such a name, a name of beauty and love something I do not bring to the world.

Getting into bed, I crawl under the soft blankets, feeling safe and secure here, I pull them up to my chin inhaling the sent one last time before I fall asleep. The Alpha stands walking to the door and I find myself wanting to talk to him to find out more, finding myself wanting to trust him. 

"I will be in the next room across the hall." he says.

"a-a-a- alpha G-Gabr-r-riel" I use my voice, it is scratchy and I have the urge to cough but cry at the same time, feeling overwhelming me as I hear my own voice for the first time, giving me a feeling of self, that I am my own person and not someones property to use as they please that I can do what I want and do more than I think I can. 

He spins around in surprise, eyes wide. I smile at him wanting to thank him somehow, without him, I wouldn't have shifted, I wouldn't have eaten this lovely food, I wouldn't have had a bath, I wouldn't have laughed and I wouldn't have talked. Seeming as though he understands exactly what I want to say he smiles kindly, eyes shining in happiness showing how young he really is without his tough exterior I can see the young man underneath. 

"Just call me Gabriel, Eira." and he opens the door to leave. 

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I am woken once again by Gwen, she helps bathe me and and suggests to do my make-up, giving her a confused look she nods In understanding and explains it to me. I know that there are many things that I do not know some good and some bad and that is what frightens me, not knowing what else that could be out there, is the scary part, I cannot protect my self and I won't rely on anyone else to. 

"Done!" she exclaims loudly and I jump surprised. Helping me to stand she holds my hand with one of hers, the other supporting my back. 

I look towards the mirror not noticing the person I see, she has almost white/silver hair that shines with the light, eyes as blue as the deepest parts of the sea, her features stand out against her face. And then I realise that this girl is me, touching the side of my face lightly I make sure its me, I stare for what feels like hours, seeing this girl for the first time, this is me I am somebody, not just a wolf to be used. Tears fill my eyes in happiness.

"Don't cry just yet, I've got another surprise!" she says sitting me back down on the chair and wheeling me out of the bedroom towards the front door. Leaving the house Gwen wheels me off the down the stairs on a ramp. 

"The Alpha made that for you, ya know. you're bringing out his sweet side! he would have never laughed like he did last night at-" 

A small voice interrupts before I can think on it any longer. "Eira!" I turn only to see Chelsea running towards me. I can't help but smile, glad to see her okay and able to move after seeing her in so much pain. I never want to see her in like that again. She only contains innocence and the will to help those around her. I know she will grow to do great things in this world. 

she jumps in my lap and Gwen pushes me over to the toys in the grass that she was playing with. 

"Alpha told me that your name is Eria! Alpha said that it means snow and your hair reminds me of snow." She beams at me. Hoping off my lap she looks up at me curiously. "Are you hurt?" and I shake my head side to side telling her no. "Can't you walk?" I shake my head again. 

"I'll help you, its just one foot in front of the other." She says like its so simple, yet I still try, sick of being pushed in this chair. I use her shoulder for support getting up, her short height assisting me. Lifting one foot  my other shakes ready to fall but I steady myself after putting the other down and I repeat the process over, each step with each step I feel freedom inching closer and closer, I find myself smiling as the steps come with more ease.

Just as I gain enough confidence to pick up my pace, three big cars roll in front of the pack house. Fear incases me at the thought of danger and I feel myself falling dread filling me. I close my eyes and wait for the impact of the hard ground against my body but it never comes. Feeling myself upright once again I open my eyes staring into the golden ones in front of me. Gabriel holds me tight against his chest and tingles explode all throughout my body, the feeling of safety and comfort surrounds me and I don't find my self feeling scared, for once I enjoy the touch of another person. 

"Are you okay?" his deep voice surrounds me and I involuntarily shiver. Getting my thoughts together I nod my head slightly and we step away from one another. I already miss the contact.

Looking behind him I notice other wolves have exited the car and are watching us both. Turning my head to the ground I rub my hands together nervously, wanting to run away but to scared ill fall again. I'm stranded and defenceless to attack.

"Trust me." Gabriel says holding out his had to me.