Blind Alley

Chapter 5.

Louis:

As i walked out of the bathroom and back to Eleanor everything around me disappeared. I was lost in my own mind, isolated from my surroundings. The music and the dozens of voices were mute in my head and every step i took away from his presence slowly teared me apart. The words of his repeated themselves in my mind. "What would you know about keeping promises" echoed. The reason why it hurt so bad was because i know it's true. And he is always honest, so i know he meant it as well.

As i walked up to Eleanor who was staring at me with concern in her eyes, she said something but i was to lost to digest it. She reached her hand out and i grabbed it.

"Louis? Did you hear me?"

She asked as i finally returned to my sense's. Now everything was clear again. The loud music, the laughs and voices around me and everything in general. I was back in reality.

"Sorry, what?"

I asked with raised eyebrows as i leaned in closer to hear her better.

"Are you okay?" She repeated. I nodded.

"Yeah yeah. I'm fine."

"You sure?"

I nodded once again. I know i wasn't fooling her but i really didn't feel like talking about it. Especially not with her. I mean, not in an offensive way of course. She is actually a good person but she's just not the one i go to talk to about my problems with Harry obviously...

Suddenly Niall walked up to me and patted my back.

"Hey, have you seen Harry?"

He asked. I swallowed my worries and let go of Eleanor's hand.

"Bathroom."

I answered. He immediately noticed something was up. Niall knows me better than i would like to think. But i can talk to him. I can trust him. Just like the other's in the band. But... I was just not in the mood for anything at all any more. At this point I just felt like leaving, going home and have some alone time to just sit and think. But i knew i couldn't. At least not yet.

Finally Harry came out of the men's room after something that felt like forever. I tried to keep my eyes off him but he seemed so absent. He tried to make his way to his earlier seat, but his mom stopped him in the way. She seemed worried. I couldn't hear them from where i was standing but it seemed like she was checking to see if he was okay. Well, i wouldn't be surprised. He is never really settle.

He just nodded repeatedly as she gave him a hug and went along. I wanted to walk up to him and confront him and just come up with some great comeback but i just couldn't figure out what to say. Our eyes met for a second and my heart raised. But then he turned away like nothing. I did the same and suddenly i heard glasses clinking. Harry was standing with a half empty glass in his hand and patted it with a fork. He was standing up and requiring every ones attention. When every one finally turned silent and looked at him he cleared his throat.

"I would like to make a toast to my wonderful, loving aunt..." He begun.

"Ah SHit"

I mumbled to myself. Was he about to make a drunk toast?? His toasts are bad enough when he's sober. Like that "I would like to make a toast but i don't have any bread" speech. It was horrendous, and so awkward. Especially when he was the only one laughing his ass off... So, my conclusion is that this will be a disaster.

"Well. She is a wonderful person and i love her with all my heart. Her husband is a great guy as well. Has anyone ever heard their story? They met when they were only 16 YEARS OLD. SIXTEEN. And from that moment on, they knew, it was true love..."

He said and turned to me. He was now looking me straight dead in the eyes. I felt really uncomfortable because everyone seemed to notice who he was referring to. I turned to Maddie who was standing a bit to the left. She gave me a scared look as if he was going to go too far. But i didn't even care anymore.

I was surprised by the meaning behind his speech. Did he even prepare this or is he just talking as he goes? 

"Wouldn't that be nice. To find your true love at such a young age and just know that you won't ever... EVER... let anything stand in the way of your love. I just wish it was that simple for everyone..."

He said and turned back to me. His voice cracked at the last sentence the way it does when he get's emotional. I took a breath and realized i was about to cry. I tried to suck it up. It turned silent for a while as we exchanged looks.

"I hope i will end up with my first love. The way you did."

He added and sat back down as everyone clapped emotionally. We met when he was 16. So, yeah, i know what he was trying to say. At that point i just walked over to Eleanor and told her i wasn't feeling well and that i really had to go home and get some sleep. She was really understanding, but i could feel Maddies eyes following me as i went. I tried to make my way to the front door. Harry stared at me shocked that i was actually leaving. But i just ignored his gaze and kept walking. Suddenly Maddie cached up to me. I hated her the most in our management. She was the worst.

"Go back to Eleanor in this instant"

She demanded.

"Suck it, Maddie"

I answered and left without any further ado. Even if it was pretty mean of me it felt really REALLY good.