Blind Alley

Chapter 4.

Harry:

The next morning I woke up from the loud unsettle sound from the kitchen from a skillet dropping to the floor. It made me flinch and sit up in one fast movement. As I was sitting there on the bed, still sleeping in a way I turned my head only to see that Louis side of the bed was empty. While sccratching my left eye I climbed out of bed. Might as well wake up in time so i won't have to be in a hurry later.

After taking a trip to the bathroom to brush my teeth and freshen up I followed the smell of egg from the kitchen. When I walked in Louis sighed.

"No! You weren't supposed to wake up!"

He whined. I smiled at him and stood right behind him to see what he was cooking. Some overcooked egg and bacon were still frying on the pan.

"Well you didn't make it easy to sleep"

I leaned down and balanced my chin on his shoulder. He was really not the best at cooking, but it's the thought that counts.

"Yeah sorry about that. I wanted to surprise you with breakfast in bed to apoligize for... you know..."

He said and turned to me. I shook my head as i was standing so close to him that I could almost feel his warmth.

"Don't worry about it."

I smiled. He smiled back and stared at my lips the way that makes me want to throw myself at him, but at the same time cherish that wonderful innocense. As my lips got closer than ever he turned away to save the food from burning up completely. I walked over to the sink and got myself a glass of water.

"So I was thinking. Why don't you join the party today?" I suggested. He stared at me and started thinking for a short while.

"I was supposed to pick Eleanor up for a shopping day but..."

Finally, he was finally getting some sence in blowing that stupid play off for one single night to spend time with me. He finally knows his priorities!

"I can bring her along, then we can spend all day together!"

Or not... I grunted angrily and rubbed my forehead in that "this is hopeless" kind of way i've seemed to pick up from him.

"You know it's not the same when she is there. Besides if she comes, papparazis will definetily come as well. How are we supposed to hang out at all when they are taking pictures everywhere?"

"We can bring the boys? They will draw the attention away from us."

 "Fine, whatever"

I muttered and left the room. I was so tired of this. But still, if I wanted this to work out i needed to keep my thoughts to myself.

Hours later i was sat in the large room stuffed with relatives and a couple of friends here and there. I sipped a the last few drops of the drink in my glass as my gaze was set across the room. My eyes were stuck faced at Louis standing next to Eleanor while talking to my aunt and wishing her a happy birthday. He wore a charmingly black suit and tie which made it even harder to keep my eyes off him. I didn't understand why he was still standing with her, showing her off. The papparazis were gone. They were outside, they can't see him now. Guess he doesn't want to risk anything since he has such a hard time trusting people.

That's when i noticed Maddie, from our management standing in the corner with a drink in her hands. Trying to fit in, though she was obviously keeping an eye on them. I leered at the wine bottle in front of Niall and grabbed it. With no further ado i poured the liquor in my glass.

"That's your fourth drink, Harry"

Zayn informed me. I grunted irritatably and gurgled in me about half the glass in seconds ignoring his caring warning. He was just worried about me, i knew that. But yet i didn't care. I hated seeing Louis being so okay with pretending and playing in a game i have been a part of in four damn years.

"Hey, do you want me to call him over?"

Liam offered. I shook my head. Maddie would notice that something was up. As I began drinking the rest of the drink in my glass Louis turned to me. His lips parted as i stared at him while drinking my pain away. His chest lifted and dropped in a sigh.

"Excuse me, i'm going for a wee."

I said and got up. With a face that couldn't hide my pain i passed him and Eleanor by without a word. I could feel him staring at me but i didn't do anything about it. I just kept my eyes on the door i was heading to. Things were beginning to turn a bit blurry but i wasn't that drunk yet. I went into the men's room and stood in front of the basin, and stared at my reflection in the mirror. I looked awful. My eyes were bloodshot. I was really awful at keeping my tears in. I palmed my hands together and rinsed my face with water. As i grabbed the towel to clean the water away someone knocked on the door. Couldn't they see it was taken?

"Taken!" I shouted and cleaned my face.

"It's me, open the door!"

Louis voice said from outside the hall. I walked over to the door and opened it. He sneaked in and locked the door behind him fast.

"Are you quite finished or do you want another bottle?" He hissed.

"I'm not drunk, Lou."

"Well, i sure as hell hope not. Maddie is in there, if you do something stupid..."

"I won't. Now go. Your girlfriend is waiting for you"

I said and felt how the ache grew in my chest. He started breathing heavily as his eyes got the familiar look in them that he had yesterday.

"Fine but promise that you won't drink any more tonight."

"I won't"

"Mean it. I want you to keep that promise, Harry"

He said and looked me in deep in the eyes. I snorted.

"What would you know about keeping promises"

The insult stung, I could tell. But i was too intoxicated to keep it inside but sober enough to mean it. He nodded and patted my shoulder. Then he left the room without saying another word. I could tell my words hurt him, but for once i actually wanted him to take the words in and think about it. He promised us the lying and pretending would be over before i knew it. He said we would come out soon. He said if management stands between us for too long he would stand up to them. He promised me that it would be over by now. But it isn't. It will never be over....