Slowly Dying

Chapter 26

Nicole's POV

I woke up in the morning, nervous as anything. I was scared. Scared of Chloe. Scared of the pain that I'd get today. Just scared. Scared of what was yet to come. My hands were shaking and I managed to get out of bed without collapsing with fear.

I changed into pink skinny jeans, a white t-shirt that had 'I don't care' imprinted on it and a pink Denim jacket that complimented my jeans. I wore white Adidas trainers and a silver anklet. If I'm going to die today, I must at least look presentable.

I went to school with Selena and we arrived there as normal. I noticed that everyone went silent as we walked in. All eyes were on us or should I say me. They were all glaring at me like I was some disease. I felt like melting into the ground.

"Chloe's going to fucking sort you out today, bitch!" Someone shouted.

"All of you, fuck off and leave Nic alone," Selena said.

She continued to strut down the corridor and dragged me along with her. We went to her locker and I saw Jason already there with Adam. I felt relieved when I saw Adam. I ran to him and hugged him tightly. That later turned into a kiss and when we broke it up, there was Chloe. Staring at us. Her face had disgust all over it.

She grabbed my arm and twisted it. I shrieked and she started to pull me up, towards her. Adam then pushed her off me and I fell to the floor. Chloe placed her hands on her hips and looked as confident as anything.

"Can you please leave Nic alone? She's not done nothing to you," Adam said, whilst helping me get up.

"Anything for you, darling," she said.

She leaned forward to Adam and kissed him on the cheek. She then ruffled his hair and strutted down the corridor. All the corridor whooped at her and you could see that everyone loved her.

I looked at Adam and he looked stunned by what had just happened. He wiped his cheek where she kissed him as she left a red lipstick print where she kissed him. Adam noticed I was looking at him and he smiled at me.

"Are you okay?" Adam asked.

"I'm fine but it seems as though you enjoyed that," I said to him, raising an eyebrow.

"Wow, I'm actually amazed, so this is what I get for defending you?" Adam asked.

"I'm sorry but if you loved me then you wouldn't stare at Chloe like she's top shit," I said to him.

"Oh my days, are you actually fucking saying that I like Chloe? Whenever you think that I want someone else just think who did I tell about my mum too, yeah it was you, Nic, and no one else," Adam said, angrily and he walked down the corridor leaving me here alone.

I felt so bad about the fact that I just had an argument with Adam. It is my fault. He didn't like Chloe, I was just jealous. I was annoyed about how heartless I was because I was the only person he told about his mum and I accused him of liking Chloe.

I went to first lesson, feeling absolutely horrible. I continued the rest of the day as normal. When the bell rang for last lesson, I went to find Adam. I found him at his locker.

"I'm so sorry Adam, I shouldn't have said it, I was just jealous of how gorgeous Chloe is," I said to him.

"Really? You're jealous of her? You're like millions times better than her," Adam said.

We both smiled at each other and hugged each other. We walked out of school with everyone looking at us. That's when I realised they weren't staring at us. They were staring at me. They didn't hate us. They hated me. And at that moment, I knew that I was nothing. I knew that I will never be happy with everyone against me. Because it's true, I'm hated by pretty much every single person in this school.

I removed Adam's arm from me and walked away from him quickly. I just wanted to see who they were looking at. Their eyes followed me and now I know that every single person wanted to see me fail. They wanted to see me dead. Dead. My brain cannot process how horrible everyone is. It's actually bewildering. How cruel is society that they want to see a person fail? But it's not that. It's me they want to fail. I'm the one they hate. And I can't do anything to change that.

I'm the one they hate. The one they despise. Me. Maybe I should just end it all. Because no matter what I do will make them like me. They will always hate me. And I can only hide behind Adam.

"Nicole!" Adam shouted, snapping me out of my thoughts.

I stopped walking and looked behind to see Adam smiling at me. I smiled back at him. Sometimes you have to pretend that you're okay, that you're not depressed and living a normal life. And that's what I did. I smiled. The biggest killer. The smile that shows you're 'okay'. But you're not. You feel as is you're dying inside. Like everything is slowly falling apart. Fake happiness is the worst. Pretending you're okay when you're crumbling inside. Behind my smiles, no one knows just how broken and in pain I am.

She was depressed as ever. She was sad about everything. He thought she was happy. He saw her smile and thought she was okay. The prettiest smile of hers fooled his eyes. He did not see that behind the smile was a girl who was in pain. She was pretending. Pretending everything was okay. Living day by day and losing hope little by little. She wouldn't be happy. She'd never be happy. At least not fully. For she was the girl that was slowly dying...

_______________________________

Hiyaaa x.
I updated again....... I love you all xxx. 
Please comment and vote