I'm In Love With A Player

Chapter 24//Felix

BELLAS POV

I stare, stunned, at mom. Next to me I hear Morgan gasp, but I cant turn to look at him.

"W...what?" I ask, my eyes watering. Morgan grips my hand, and I squeeze his back.

"He has leukaemia," mom repeats, and I see her own eyes filling again. She furiously blinks them away. 

"How... how long have you known?" I ask, knuckling my eyes. I am not going to cry.

Theres a pause. "Three weeks." Mom says eventually.

"What? WHAT?" I scream, banging on the table. "You've known for three weeks AND YOU DIDNT TELL ME?!" I see fire in my eyes. How could she do this. The bitch. Morgan places his hand on my shoulder but I shove it off irritably.

"For fucks sake Bella. The world doesn't revolve around you. Stop fucking causing a scene. I had my reasons not to tell you." Mom shouts. Its the first time I've ever heard her swear so she must mean business.

There is an awkward silence, broken by morgan scraping his chair across the floor to be nearer to my mom and I. His own eyes are brimming and I realise how this news is affecting him too. Even though he hasn't known Felix for long he has said time and time again how he thinks of him as his little brother.

"How does Felix feel about this?" He asks, his voice breaking and I put my arm around him.

"That's the thing... I haven't told him. He doesn't know," mom says, standing up and pacing. This makes me want to scream again but I try to remain calm. 

"He has a right to know," I say, my voice shaking.

"I know that," mom says, still pacing, her voice wobbling. "But what do I tell him? He's only six years old." She turns around as she tries to sort herself out. She always said she never wanted to cry in front of her children, because she never wanted them to see her like that, so I signal to Morgan to be quiet and let her have a few minutes.

"The truth," I say quietly when she turns back to face us. And at this exact moment, Felix bounds into the room. 

"Can I have a juice-box?" He says happily. Then he stops to survey the scene in front of him. Our tear-stained cheeks. Our puffy eyes. "Whats wrong?" He asks. He's too cute, and my heart breaks. Mom lets out a whimper.

"I know I'm supposed to be the mom, I'm supposed to be brave and tell him but I cant. I physically cant tell him. Please, Morgan or Bells, one of you do it." She begs. I look at Morgan who sighs and nods. He rubs his eyes quickly and takes a deep breath.

"Felix, my man, I have something to tell you," he says. "You have lukemia." He comes straight out and says it.

"Whats lukey-ma?" He asks, and its too much. Moms face crumples but she tries to hide it. Morgan swallows and I feel bad for making him say it.

"Well, Felix, its..." I start but its too hard to continue. Morgan pats my hand to reassure me.

"Its an illness." Morgan manages.

"What? I'm sick?" Felix asks.

"Yes, I'm afraid you are. And its quite serious." He says truthfully.

"How serious? Could I die?" Felix asks looking scared.

"Yes. You could. But you wont. As long as you have medicines." Morgan says, blinking hard.

"I hate medicines," Felix whines.

"Its fine. They are really nice I promise," Morgan says. "And then afterwards you will be all better. The treaments will take a while though." Felix looks upset.