The Valkyrie (Obi-Wan x OC) completed

Chapter 18: old memories

"Experienced it first hand?" I questioned as I frowned, leaning away from  him so I could take a closer look at his face. He seemed to avoid my gaze as he tried to gather the right words to say. 

"It was a mistake." Obi-Wan sighed as he looked down at his hands that were folded in his laps. After that he stood up, walking towards the balcony as he gripped the balistrade tightly. "One I wouldn't dare to repeat. Atachments they... they are a path to the dark side of the force." 

"Sometimes we don't have a choice, Obi-Wan." I walked after him and came to stand next to him, staring off into the horizon. "It's not the attachments that make a Jedi weak, make them turn to the dark side. It's the fact that you try your best to fight against it, leaving you weak and uncertain about your feelings. It's not love that makes a man turn dark, it's what he does with it that makes him who he is. Every man falls in love eventually, there's no stopping that. The only thing you control is how you deal with it."

"So you would have me love someone who I wouldn't be able to protect from the following consequences?" he turned towards me. "That's selfish even for you, my dear princess."

"It's not selfish if you know that she can protect herself." I raised my eyebrow at him. 

"It's not only about that." Obi-Wan countered. "It's also the fact that we are charged with protecting everyone. Having attachments can cloud your judgement when it comes to saving the one you love and other people, maybe even more depending on the situation."

'We're not all damsels in distress needed to be saved by jedi, Obi-Wan." I turned away from him. "Quite the opposite, actually. You were the one to bring us in harms way in the first place."

"Now that's something else entirely." He chuckled as his face lighted up.  

"We were talking about you, weren't we?" I joined him as a smile grew on my face. "let's not forget about your dramatic shouts back in the dungeons. No, Lyanna!! I need to talk to you! Don't leave me!" I mimmicked his voice, leaving Obi-Wan laughing even harder than before. 

"You had me locked up in a cage Lyanna." He protested. "To be fair, I did save your life later. So in fact; you were a damsell in distress."

"Then I suppose it could never become something between us, could it?" I turned my full attention towards him, my eyes scanning his closely. I saw how his eyes widened slightly and his hands slightly clenched into fists at his side.

"It would be disastrous if it did." He spoke softly, the former smirk having dissapeared from his face. He frowned a bit as he took my hand in his, his thumb softly tracing circles on the palm. "I would never hope for it to be for I am scared that it would only end like it did the last time."

"Obi-Wan." I spoke his name softly as I laid my other hand on the side of his cheek. "You needn't be scared. Whatever happened last time, history rarely repeats itself. You can't hold yourself back the rest of your life for one mistake you made when you were young." I sighed when I saw in his eyes that I had yet succeeded in convincing him. Above all though I saw the hurt in his eyes. It was so evident that I realized that it couldn't have been long since it happened. Whoever he lost, it wasn't a long time ago.

"What was her name?" I looked at him in symphaty.

"Satine." He said. "Her name was Satine."

I remained silent as I looked at him, not knowing what to say. It was clear that something drastically happened and that she hadn't died of a natural cause. No, somehow he thought that it was all his fault, making him shut himself off from any other attachments to make sure he couldn't hurt anyone else.