Trust

A Secret Journal part 15

(Play any sad song of your choice, I'm writing this while listening to ''Its hard to say goodbye'', if you want more feels)

The whole crew had no words to say, it was just pure silence. They didnt make a sound but their eyes were telling that they were on the edge of crying.

Hera looked at Kanan. his eyes were the worst, tears were already falling down his face. Hera never saw the Jedi like that, she touched his shoulder.Kanan winced and turned around a bit, while tears were falling on the ground. Kanan turned away from Hera as his vsion was blurry from tears and he fell on his knees.

"E-Ezra I'm so sorry"Kanan said in a shaky voice

But the thing the crew didn't know was that Ezra was outside the room, leaned on the door in a protective ball position, tears were pouring down his face as well.

Back in the common room, Hera didnt know what to do.Then Zeb took the datapad in his hands, he wanted to shut it down and return it to Ezra. But when he looked at the videos he noticed that there was a another vdeo attached to the last one.

(End the song that you played or keep listening, depends on you)

"H-Hey guys.."Zeb said in a shaky tone

The crew looked up except from Kanan.

"T-There is another video"Zeb said as he put the datapad on the table and played the video.Then Kanan looked up.

THE VIDEO STARTED...

Ezra was holding a guitar in his hands, his eyes were a bit red, clearly showing signs of crying.

"I know who ever watches this will think I'm pathetic, because I-I made such a dramatic problem because...K-Kanan told me why can t I be perfect, It..It hit me that much...b-because on the streets..e-everyone is pushing you to be someone else you are not, someone you personally dont even know, someone perfect, but I'm not, but I want to be a-and I c-cant, I wrote this song, I might make some mistakes while playing it, some notes are blurry because of...water on them..so yeah..t-this is..."Ezra said and started playing the song

START OF THE SONG...(Play the video on top, the song does not belong to me)

*Music*

Hey dad, look at me

Think back and talk to me

Did I grow up according to plan?

And do you think that I'm wasting my time,

doing this I wanna do but

It hurts when you disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it

I just wanna make you proud,

I'm never gonna be good enough for you

Can't pretend I'm alright

*Tone goes a bit higher on the guitar*

Ezra made a pause and sighed

*Music starts as he countinues the song*

And you cant change me,

Cause we've lost it all,

nothing last forever

I'm sorry, I can't be 

Perfect