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the pain is still there

***EDIT COMPLETE... Let me know if you see any mistakes***

Keegan POV

It had been 3 weeks since the incident and I finally just went home. I was staying with my brother, but I felt like I was overwhelming him and scaring the kids with my nightmares and horrible all-day sickness.

I could hardly sleep at night because of what Candice did to me. It haunted me in my sleep and while I was awake. I knew she was gone but she somehow etched herself into my brain. I couldn't shake her.

I couldn't help but feeling like a horrible person since I took her life away. She was going to kill me if I didn't kill her. If she had gone any deeper, she would have severed my femoral artery and I would have bled out in a matter of seconds, or minutes.

I guess when I was nearly out for a week, they had run test on me to make sure I was okay. They even confirmed that I was indeed pregnant. About 3 months to be exact. I was also on crutches right now because I couldn't put too much weight on my leg or I'd ripe the stitches. She did a number on me.

I had stayed with my brother for a week now, but my screams terrified him and the kids. I didn't want to put stress on Liz because she had gotten further in her pregnancy. He insisted I stayed but I just went home instead.

I wanted to be around Jason, but I just couldn't face him right now. I loved him, and I knew he loved me, but my pride wouldn't let him take care of me like I wanted him to. Plus I just needed time to myself without him.

Right now, I just laid in the dark. I was tired, but the dreams of Candice awaited me, and I didn't want to face her right now. I was extremely stressed out which is not good for the baby at all. No matter what I did, it seemed like I couldn't relax.

I had miscarried before in a previous relationship. My then boyfriend blamed me and eventually we split up. I knew that god had another plan for me and that's when I started working harder and opened my chain of restaurants.

I felt that I was given a second chance with this child despite the circumstances. I had to do right by her but right now I was doing everything wrong. I couldn't sleep so I just tossed and turned for most of the night until it was morning.

Getting out of the bed was a bit of a struggle from the crutches, I did my morning routine while gagging from brushing my teeth. I felt sick to my stomach brushing my teeth every single morning. This wasn't what I imagined my pregnancy would be like. Hell I didn't even know I was going to get pregnant ever again.

Morning sickness has never been this bad for me, but it was extreme this time around. I made my way to the kitchen and began making my breakfast when I got sick from the smell of the eggs. My favorite breakfast ever. Is this real life?

I wiped my mouth as I just finished hurling into the toilet and made my way to the sink. What the hell am I doing? I questioned myself. I can't do this.

My day went on as usual as I sat bored in the house. Hearing my phone ring in the other room I rushed to get it. Turning the corner too fast my crutch fell from under me and sent me crashing to the floor hard. Fuck it!

I didn't even know what I was doing at this point but when I touched my face it was wet. I was fucking crying. I mean I could feel myself now. Hell, I could hear myself now and I was sobbing. I don't even know why I was crying but I was.

It seemed like I laid there forever and let my tears dry up on my face. It was weird that I was actually comfortable on the floor. I could get used to being down here on the soft carpet. It was comforting.

Falling asleep I felt like I would have a bit of rest now but that was a lie. I don't know how long I was sleeping but I started screaming as Candice stabbed me in the leg. "Keegan" someone yelled startling me.

I woke up and I was laying on my bed. Looking up with teary eyes it was my brother. "Keegan are you ok? You need to come back home with me right now. You were laying on the hallway floor. I thought something happened when you didn't answer your phone, so I came by and I found you" He said worried.

"I'm ok KJ I promise. You need to get back home to Liz. I just slipped and I ended falling asleep on the floor" "Kee you don't look too good. Are you sleeping enough?" he asked already knowing the answer to that question.

"Yes, I'm sleeping enough KJ" I lied. "Don't lie to me. Have you talked to Jason lately?" He asked curiously with an eyebrow raised. I knew he also knew the answer to that question too. "Yeah. We've talked briefly." I said lying again.

"Yo! For real! Keegan you about to stop lying to me. I talked to Jason today and he said you were ignoring his calls. What the fuck is up with the lying?" He said getting frustrated with me. "Look I don't need this right now Kenneth. I'm stressed the fuck out! I can't sleep. I can't eat shit. I'm going through it" I said crying now.

"Fuck" I heard him whisper under his breath. "I just want to sleep! I just want to be comfortable, but I can't! I don't want to talk to Jason right now and you should understand!" I said angrily snatching away from him.

"Baby sis. Relax. I'm sorry. You need to stop though you're hurting you and the baby" he said softly and pulling me back to him. He was right, I was hurting the both of us and that's the last thing I wanted.

"I'm here to help you and so is Jason. Come back home with me or go back home with Jason. We'll take care of you bighead" he said pulling me into another hug. "I... I... I'm scared KJ. Every time I sleep, I see her" I cried.

"She's getting to me still KJ! I can't eat because of morning sickness. HELL, All damn day sickness. I'm losing myself. I'm trying to make sure I don't lose this one too KJ" I said sobbing even harder. "Shhh" he said trying to soothe me.

He knew about my first and only pregnancy and the result of my body rejecting the baby. Now here I am again pregnant and stressing out this time. "I know little sis I know" He said continuing to soothe me and kiss my head.

I cried until I couldn't cry anymore, and he held me until I fell asleep again. Eventually I woke up in a dry sweat panting. Candice was cutting me to pieces, and she made Kenneth watch. "It's ok I'm here" Kenneth said holding me.

He brought me some yogurt and granola which I was able to keep down finally. I drank some water and laid down for a bit. I was feeling nauseous again and I just laid there. This nauseous was ridiculous and a bit excessive.

It was getting later and later when KJ's phone went off. "You already know who that is" he said smiling and shaking his head. "Hey baby... She's doing alright... I'll be home soon... Alright how's the kids doing?... Tell that little nugget to get in bed. Daddy's coming home soon" I heard him laugh. I love them.

Eventually he got off the phone and made sure I was all good and ready for bed even though I couldn't really sleep. "You can go silly. I'll be fine I promise" I said. "OK just hold on a sec" he said stepping out of the room.

He finally came back. "Alright young one. I'm gonna head out" he said kissing my forehead. "I love you" "I love you too. Let me know when you get home" I said pulling him into a hug. "Sure will do. I'll lock you in" he said pushing me to lay down.

"Thanks" I said as he walked out of the room. I laid there until I could hear the door shut and him pulling off. I laid there for another 15 minutes or so contemplating on what I was going to do. Fuck it! Just do it!

Picking up my phone and dialing the number. He picked up on the first ring. "Jason. I ... I need you" I said trying not to cry. My hormones were messing with me big time. "I'm already on my way love bug" He responded.

**Sorry it wasn't much but I'll update again tomorrow. I've been studying for my finals and I think I'm pretty much good with where I am. I have a study session tomorrow at my school from 5pm to 7pm so hopefully I'll have an update later in the night or earlier in the afternoon. Sorry for the wait. But after next week my last final is Tuesday at 7pm so I'll be able to update more often. I'm thinking at least once a week. Oh yeah. I'm trying to go to law school now as well. So hopefully after these two years I'll see what is up with that young law life lol what are you guys doing right now? In school? What state are you from? Talk to me! **