[original] 'Til Death Do Us Part {Oumasai}

Chapter Nine: Dark Secrets

*trigger warning: suicide

"So I guess this case is a tough one, huh?" He asks, tears falling out of his eyes.

"I-I'm sorry Kokichi I-" "Shh" he places a soft kiss on my forehead. "K-kokichi-" "I said shh" he grabs hold of both of my hands and kisses them, tears still rolling down his soft cheeks. He sighs. "Falling into a coma, confusion with the milkshake straw, drowsiness when we left laser tag, feeling nauseous earlier and drowsiness again when you collapsed in my lap. All common symptoms of an overdose... Shuichi, why didn't you tell me?" I mumble "I was afraid you'd hate me..." "What!?" He looks at me. "Hate you?!" I gulp. "Shuichi, I can't stress this enough, I love you so much, you are everything to me. I would never, under any circumstance, hate you. I couldn't if I wanted to."

I begin to cry, he's such a selfless person. I don't understand what I did to deserve having this amazing man in my life, let alone to be dating him. His expression becomes stern and serious, he tightens his grip on my hands. "Don't you dare even think about doing that again, I don't know what I'd do if I lost you." I nod, I don't know what I would do if I lost him either. He helps me through even the toughest of times. He's always been there for me when no one else was. When we were still in school if I was bullied he was always the one to stand up for me, then when I came home and wanted to die he was there again, hugging me, helping me through the pain.

Some days he would come to school the next day with a black eye, covered in bruises. He would fight the people who made fun of me. It took me too long to realize how much I loved him. I'm such an idiot. I hug him, tears now pouring from my eyes. "I'm so sorry" I shout through my tears, sniffling. "I love you Kokichi, so much. You've been there for me all these years, I would have killed myself before I even graduated if it weren't for you. Thank you doesn't even begin to cover it. You mean so much more to me than words can describe."

He stands up. "Let's go home, I'm sure you're tired." I hold his hand and we begin to walk to my place, a small apartment. Once we arrive to my place we both smile in excitement as we both realize that this our first day living together. Kokichi calls his parents (because he still lives with them regardless of being in his 20's) and lets them know he wouldn't be coming home tonight. He doesn't tell them anything else, we can tell them everything tomorrow. I yawn. "I'm going to go to bed, if you want you can stay up, it's up to you." "And miss out on spending our first night of living together cuddling you? No way!" We both put on pyjamas and cuddle up in bed together. I wrap my leg around him and drift to sleep.

Tomorrow will be a better day.

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a/n sorry for this chapter being a bit shorter than usual my mind's been wandering lately but I'll try to get back to writing the normal amount. just gotta keep pushing *wipes sweat* also I have to say a few things:

1) thank you all so much for 1k reads!! thats honestly so amazing and I love you guys so much! Please never give up who you are because I love you all so much and if you ever need to talk you can comment (my messages are still broken hhh) and I'd be happy to try and help!

2) ive gotten over one of my writing issues: I'm starting to get used to calling him Kokichi and it doesn't make me as uncomfortable as it used to

3) I have a bit of a dilemma: Most of you said that Shuichi would be a better top and I 100% agree with you guys but for writing purposes it would make a lot more sense for me to make ouma a top when/if i write nsfw. so would you guys be okay if just for like 1 chapter (maybe more idk) ouma's personality like switched and he became this kinky slut