The Taste of Sin // TaeKook

~two~

BEFORE

The session was over faster than I had expected, some people complained about certain issues like how they were really struggling with depression and other addicting things. I didn't seem to pay attention as much, which I, of course, wasn't trying to be disrespectful but my mind was elsewhere. Yes, I kept thinking of Taehyung, his face was very similar to what the golden sunshine was and I wanted every last bit of it. But I couldn't Kim Taehyung was too precious for me

I stand at the table holding a cup of water standing by myself because Hoseok said he needed to use the bathroom. So now I am stuck here lingering amongst the other people who talk amongst themselves. As I take a sip I didn't notice someone approach me, until I felt a hand clap my back and I nearly choke on my water. "Oh my gosh...I am sorry." I heard that voice that belonged to of course the beautiful one that led these sessions. When I turned Kim Taehyung looked a little worried and concerned.

"No it's alright..." I mutter as I pull myself together and look him over. He was basically the same height as me, he seemed so much smaller though. Maybe it was that personality that he had or that smile he would show off and make him seem like he was almost childish. He was innocent, I knew that much. Well, I could only assume that much, he was the son of a pastor, I could only imagine that he hasn't done any of the stuff that I have done. 

When he saw that I was okay he spoke with a smile. "I just came to tell you that I am excited to see you come and ask the Lord for help for whatever your addiction is." He said with a smile. I could only stand there and try not to give a look of judgment. He was lucky he was cute because this whole religion thing was a little bit irritating. 

I smile anyway and act as if I am agreeing with him. "Thank you...hopefully I can figure out a solution..." I say.

Taehyung nodded before he bit his lip. "Hoseok told me what this addiction was and I also wanted to let you know that if you want help to get rid of this sin...I will pray with you." He said. I wanted to punch Hoseok so much right now, why was he telling pastor boy this shit, I was not ready for this information to be told yet and now I could feel the embarrassment build up inside and I fought the urge to look angry, this wasn't Taehyung's fault so I don't want him to face any of my wrath. So with a surprisingly calm smile, I look to Taehyung and nodded. 

"I will keep that in mind." I said forcefully before I noticed Hoseok returning so I smiled once again forced to Taehyung. "I have to go now."

"Will you be returning Jeon Jungkook?" He asked. I noticed the expression in his eyes and it was almost as if there was a little hope in them. At this point, I didn't want to hurt the boy's feelings and say no, because I have no intentions of coming back. I lie and frankly, that might not even be a good option, but I do it anyway. 

"Sure..." I pause and looked him up and down. "See you later Kim Taehyung." 

Then I throw away my cup and go to Hoseok whose waiting and quickly escort him out, he noticed my tension so when I get outside with him and push him slightly he isn't very surprised but confused. "What?" He asked

"You told him!?" I exclaim as I point my hand to the church. He looked confused before he realized I meant Taehyung and he nodded. "WHY?!" I exclaim with a look of exasperation. 

"Well...he is the leader of these sessions and he's quite a good learner." He explained. I gave him a huff and run a hand through my hair as I turn away. I could tell Hoseok was watching me before he came to realization. "You like him don't you?" He asked

I bite my lip before I turn to him and gave him a stern look. "Hoseok, he's the most beautiful human I have ever seen, and I have an awful addiction. I didn't want him to know how awful it is, I just wanna be perfect and...everything for him. That's the thing though I have just met him and he's a son to the pastor here...I can't rush into things like that or it's gonna end up badly and I can't have him hurt." I say. I feel my eyes burn with tears as they start to form. I wipe them away and grumble lowly as Hoseok stares at me in concern

Hoseok eventually comes over and he grabs my hand and looked me in the face. "Give it time...you're here to get help...let him listen and help you." He said. "He did it with me and it's been months." He said. I purse my lips remembering that grim memory of Hoseok nearly committing suicide and I sigh as I lick my lips and look down. "He's a good kid and he doesn't judge anyone. That's how he was raised."

I look at him and then ask the burning question. "How is he with the gays?" I asked. Hoseok froze and then he sighed.

"I don't know about that. Taehyung is quite kept to himself...if you ask me...I think he's scared to say something wrong." Hoseok said. I look to him and then to the church again, I stare as I think of Taehyung. I know I had considered not coming back but with Hoseok's encouraging words and the simple curiosity of Kim Taehyung, I start to reconsider. "Is something on your mind Kookie?" Hoseok asked me.

I look up to him and I hesitantly speak. "I think I'm ready to get all the help I need." I said. "Can you help me with my apartment?" 

Hoseok smiled and he placed his hand on my shoulder and gave me a nod. "Of course Kookie."

At this point, I was glad to have Hobi as a friend. I needed it, especially now.

A/N I am hating myself for this filler but...HERE YA GO

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