The Taste of Sin // TaeKook

~three~

Okay, so this might be confusing but parts switch between past and present...IT MIGHT BE CONFUSING BUT KEEP IN MIND THIS WILL ALL LEAD UP TO AN EXPLANATION...okay on with the TaeKook

Also pre warning a JiKook scene in this chapter.

AFTER

It's been a month

A whole month or even more of that traumatizing event. 

I still have nightmares, because I remember seeing the blood on my own hands. I shouldn't ever have had that much blood on me. I shake out of my thoughts as I scroll through my social media feed and keep focused on that. It was one of those sleepless nights for me and I had no intention of trying to go back to sleep because I know I will just end up going back to that night. 

"Kook...it's in the middle of the night what are you doing up." I hear the soft and sleepy voice speak. I huff as I turn my phone off and look at the boy sitting next to me.

"Don't worry about me Chim Chim...I'm just not tired," I say with a small smile.

I met Jimin a bit before Taehyung's death. He had joined the therapy group to get help just like everyone else. He became friends with me and then eventually Taehyung because we all hung around each other. After Taehyung died, Jimin comforted me as much as he could, and essentially we grew close and developed a relationship. He made me happy and I did care for him, but it hurts myself to say Taehyung still had my heart.

"You're thinking about Tae again..." He states as he reached up and ran a hand through his hair in a caring way. I only shrug about and fiddled with my hands. "I wish you would be more open about it and tell me how you feel."

I turn to Jimin and grab his hand that is still going through my hair and I give him a sigh. "I want to be honest with you, but...I just can't right now." I said with a frown before leaning in and pecking his cheek. "Can you just trust me for now?" I ask

Jimin gives me a look before he nods and takes my hand. "At least come back to bed and lay down...it's cold back there..." He said. I rolled my eyes playfully at him but stand up anyway. 

"Alright ya pouty princess," I said before walking back with him to the bedroom. Yes my mind was on Taehyung but I did need to stay grounded. It's what everyone wants for me and what I need to remember.

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I didn't sleep at all, so when it was five in the morning, I needed to go out and get some air. I pull on a hoodie and some track pants. I grab my trainers before glancing at Jimin who is fast asleep. I give him a small smile before I exit the room to get started on my walk. 

I head out into the chilly fall air and begin walking god knows where. The sun was just beginning to rise, so golden rays began to peek from the ground. I pull my hood up and continue. This was a normal routine in the morning. That is of course if I had no sleep, or if I had the same nightmare over again. The walk helped clear my thoughts from the horrible dream because it showed me the beauties of nature, and plus I was doing something other than thinking about it.

I realize I have walked into town when I spot the church. I stop and stare at it for a while before I curse at myself for even considering on walking inside. This church had an area where you could walk in whenever you wanted and pray. I remember Taehyung showing me it after a therapy session, even though I told him many times about how I had no intentions of doing any kind of religious stuff like that.

I walk into it anyway

It's very much empty which makes sense since it is almost six in the morning. I look around before I go to sit down. I keep my hands in my pocket as I just look around as I keep my thoughts to myself. Then I look to the front and see the empty stage, it's filled with stuff to remember Taehyung and I scoff. His father may have been some religious higher man, but I don't know why he acted like such a good man.

I stand up and walk to the front. I run my hand along the roses that surround a picture of Taehyung. I give a scowl to how the flowers are dying and all I want to do is make the best memorial to replace this one. I shake my head and continue to look at the church. I turn and stop seeing that I am not alone. 

"I didn't know you were religious." Taehyung's father speaks.

I only stare at him for a little bit before I begin to leave. "I'm not...I came to honor him..." I say as I take a hold of the door handle before I hear him speak.

"You come to honor him a lot..." He said. I tense at that and don't move before he speaks again. "I do see you come in a lot...it's the same thing every time. You come in at six...you sit down...and you then go up to that memorial...lately I have noticed the look of disapproval on your face..."

"The flowers are dying," I say simply 

"Ah yes..." He said as he looked back and sighed. "I have been trying to convince his mother to take it down but she just can't part with it." He said as he pinched the bridge of his nose. I want to snap at him or hit him, but he's a preacher, plus we're in a church. Doing anything that I am thinking of is probably a major sin. So I simply turn to him and give him a nod. 

"Good luck with that. Have a good day sir." I say before I exit the church and leave the piece of shit father behind. I had to get out before I would actually hit him. With the power he has over me in this situation, causing any violence would not be smart. 

So I simply choose to walk back. 

A/N To make up for the lack of Tae in this chapter, he will be in the very next chapter and it will be much more happier...I PROMISE

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