The Taste of Sin // TaeKook

~twenty-two~

AFTER

Most nights, I don't get nightmares as much as I used to. However sometimes they hit me at the most random and sometimes happiest times. When they do hit, they're always the same. They're always the same traumatic scene.

They always repeat the awful night, the night of Taehyung dying.

This night I burst awake and sit up with sweat glistening on my chest. My hair is matted to my forehead and tears are in my eyes. I take a second of deep panting breaths before I let out a sigh and hide my face in my hands. I can't keep living like this. It really does get worse and worse every time and it shatters my confidence I try to build up every time.

I feel a hand rubbing my back softly, and I look over at Jimin who also woke up. I let out another sigh, "Sorry..."

Jimin shook his head and he pressed kisses to my shoulder.
"It's okay...I don't mind at all." He said as he moved his hand up and reached up to brush his sweaty hair back.
"Same nightmare?"

I nod.

"Why...don't we get changed and go for a midnight stroll..." He said softly. I think about it for a second before I nod. It actually sounds incredible especially with the cool fall breeze on my skin.
"Lemme get a shirt..."

We both get dressed and soon enough are heading out of the apartment. We're silent, both of our hands connected as Jimin leans against me as we walk. It wasn't until we reach a park that Jimin speaks. "How are you feeling?"

I huff but give him a small smile.
"I could be better...these nightmares just keep getting worse..." I say.
"I wonder...I wonder if they're just gonna keep getting worse."

Jimin frowned.
"You're grieving Kook, these things take time...your head isn't thinking properly right now. I know it's tough but I've seen you and you're one tough cookie." He said. That made me chuckle and he couldn't help but grin slightly. "Do you think these dreams are because you're worried about the court date in two days?" He asks me.

I frown.
"It has to be... it's the only explainable thing. Tae has been dead for a long time now and every time I worry about something involving him I get those dreams."

Jimin nods and he walks us over to a bench and we both sit down. He lays his head on my shoulder and is silent for only a moment.
"Your brother has this covered, we have a good case on our hands. He even said that journal will be perfect evidence for the case." He said.
"The only thing I want you worrying about is how you'll dress that day because that monster...he is going to rot in jail for what he has done."

My eyes close before I roll my eyes.
"I sure fucking hope so." I say before taking a deep breath. I think for a second before I turn to Jimin who looks tired but not exhausted. I smile softly before I lean in and place a kiss to his cheek. He blinks in surprise and looks to me. "I love you, you know that?"

Jimin smiles and he nods.
"I know, and I love you."

I hum before I get up and I take his hand. "Let's go back...and rest...I'm feeling a little better."

Jimin smiles as he grabs my hand and stands up before we make our way home. I look up to the sky and I smile softly seeing the moon. It reminds me of Taehyung and that bad dream that struck me felt like nothing now. I kissed Jimin's cheek as we head back to the apartment.

We let out a sigh of relief when we got in the warm apartment and kicked off our shoes. It was getting chillier these months, especially in the middle of the night. I hum and look to Jimin. I think about all the sacrifices he's done for me so I can't help but to walk over to him and give him a back hug, which surprises him.

"I wanted to tell you, thank you...for everything you've done for me..." I tell him.

He pauses before he smiled and turned to me. "You don't have to thank me Kook..."

"Yes I do...you deal with so much of my shit and really I don't know what I'd do without you." I say before kissing his forehead.
"From the moment Taehyung died you offered me support. You would check up on me daily, come visit me every now and then and slowly fell in love with me...and honestly based on my mess of a life...I don't know how you did it." I say before hugging him.
"No matter what, do not leave me..." I mutter as I feel those words sting my chest.

I've lost someone I loved dearly once, I couldn't lose anymore people...

He hears me begin to cry and he's taken back. He must have assumed I was fine but the crying definitely threw him off. He kisses my neck and pulls me close. "Hey shh...it's okay I got you...let's go lay in bed." He said as he pulled back and led me to the bedroom. I lay down and he looked down at me worriedly before he sighed. "I'll go make a cup of tea."

I watch him walk out as I sniffle almost pitifully and I think about why I'm crying. So many emotions at once made me think about how, awful everything has been. The anxiety for Friday was also really getting me and it's been taking an emotional toll on me.

Jimin returns with a tea and based on the smell I can tell it helps me calm down and I honestly wish I could smile at this point knowing I have the best boyfriend.

The rest of the night is filled with silence and him sitting there comforting me.

Lemme tell y'all, a hoe struggled tonight. BUT I HOPE YOU ENJOYED AAAA

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