I'm sad. Please help me. (A Joshler online/texting fic) ✔️

50: It's time

CHAPTER 50! Wowie guys. This has been a wiiiiiiild 49 chapters + this one. Flood me with your comments, I love them SO much!

There's lyrics to songs in here and I'd highly recommend reading it all 'cause there's parts of the story that are important to the story in between the lyrics!

Love you guys. Thank for sticking around and supporting me through everything. Enjoy 2411 words.

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It was time.

Time for Tyler to almost perform his songs. Ashley was on stage now, reading her poetry perfectly, even though she'd been so nervous. She didn't even stutter once, or messed up a sentence. She did amazing, and of course, as always, her words were beautiful.

head splits
and aches and bleeds
and sorrow seeps out of
my pores despite
my posture
despite my smile
and my white teeth
my heart ebbs and flows
like the tide scraping rocks
and I feel it all
and you know all that I
know and it's okay
to hurt and to
cry and to crack
and the red spills out and
we stand and we smile and
we break and
it's going to be,
it has to be
beautiful
in the end

Of course, Tyler shed a few tears.

this is for when you crave the burn
like swallowing
singes your insides like
black coals with orange outlines
like it hurts until
it can't anymore until
scars cover your skin like scales as
a dark armor from the fire.
this is for when you crave the burn
like a raging river
runs through your veins
pulling you like claws
into the grave but
you need it
more than breathing
more than bleeding
because hurting is healing.
this is for when you crave the burn
when all you want
is to let the sorrow
swallow you please
take this like a life raft
and please
never let go.

And then it was time for the last poem and Tyler didn't know how to feel about that one. He felt everything at once when she read the last one.

the sun rises and falls
like your lungs in perfect harmony.
five senses,
four limbs,
three freckles in constellation,
two eyes and
one heart sending blood in circulation
like the earth around the sun.
remember:
"I am alive."

And after that, Ashley got a complete standing ovation of people applauding and cheering. She couldn't stop smiling and blushing, and when she got off stage she immediately attacked Tyler with a hug.

"You did it!" He cheered. "I did!!" She exclaimed as she hugged Tyler tightly. "Now it's your turn!" She excitedly said.

"Yeah I should've never participated", Tyler mumbled, regretting it all because of his anxiety. But no, he had to do this. He had to do it before he ended it.

"Don't say that! You're gonna kill it. You're gonna be so so so great", she said.

"Here. I have another poem for you. Wanted to read this one to you personally before you have to get up there", Ashley said. Then she started reading.